Well, in the past, he may well have been locked up in a hospital/etc, but in my country at least & perhaps yours, the government has "done away" with such institutions, so they now live within the community, some with the help of assisted care.
He told me yesterday that he has 'beautiful' young skin for his age and then pointed out wrinkles on my face. I think I had said something that offended him for him to do that. But he is overweight so his wrinkles in his 30s arent showing - if he lost weight they would. I try not to take anything by him to heart anymore now I know hes not all there.
I sent him a message today after seeing his Instagram. Yet another post very arrogant and aimed at anyone who sees it. Thats he is good looking and very talented and laughing about how others arent even half that and yet think their so great etc. And then threats on there that if these people (??) continue to view his page of photos to beware. Something like that. And I know he is just partly doing this because he likes to be an idiiot because he is nuts but for some reason they make me go really distressed still. Its like a deep kick to the guts each time - and makes me want to fall to the ground and just cry in distress and give up -
I told him the other week that I got distressed by those type of posts. That I would cry for and hour over them in stress because of my nature. And instead of listening and taking that into account, he just dismissed me and went on not only doing it again but more and more.
So fast forward to now and I just feel so like taking him down notches - his ego and delusions. Thats what it does to me. You see this person supposed to be your partner and hes online writing these crazy things and doing it everyday intensely. He sees nothing wrong with it and laughs at how I so called think too much about things. But it is really disturbing to have to see that all the time- I look at it to see what hes up to and what mindscape hes in because its hard most of the time when he is in that catonic state and cant interact.
So today I wrote stuff to him telling him how those posts can make me feel. And that I get quite upset and stressed out about it. I did actually have an anxiety attack over it this afternoon but I did not bother to tell him that. I told him I have passive disrespect and repel and wanting to just say nasty things to him. I explained what its like to be around an arrogant person if he ever has. I was honest and just threw out what I thought and I did it for me. He prob cant be bothered reading most of it anyway.
Im just so tired of it. He should really be apologizing to me and explaining to me as I asked him to explain - what he is going on about in these posts and that the more he communicated with me about it the less I would likely get as distressed perhaps.
So fast forward this afternoon and he goes on there and puts more stuff on there again. Then posts a photo of his face and says that he wont do anymore narki posts for the rest of the day.
At the same time hasnt even responded to me. Talked to me.
Even when he is nice and does nice things to me, I still feel uncomfortable. I feel like I am waiting on his faults to jump on.