Falkor
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My Therapy Journey
Hello all, I follow a group therapy and individual therapy. I have a contract signed for about one year. I hope many of these sessions will help me a lot and i hope to get out of my social phobia behaviour to get rid of sa or at least to see improvement in my life. It is a very intensive therapy, DGT. Dialectical behavioral therapy. To teach you to accept yourself with this therapy mind fulness. and see things in a different perspective. You also learn to get a grip on your emotions. I got diagnosed with social phobia and I have symptoms of borderline personality disorder. I have very strong feelings and i have very shaky mood swings. I often have a sense of emptiness, and I have separation anxiety and fear of commitment. I would like to improve my life and get my life on track and just go out the door again without fear. I'm going to fight. I'll keep in the journal how it all goes and what I learn every time.
meeting my individual therapist
Today i've met my therapist, my taxi brought me to the wrong building, so i need to walk 10 min to another building.. oops. I had to call the taxi again to pick me up at this place. But i had a good conversation with G. (i call my therapist G on the journal ) G told me that she read about my life and she told me that DGT could offer a lot for me. She described how people are affected by their emotions, feeling lost because people think it's simple and easy, while we are suffering as a victim in our own routine. She told me that my anxiety and other related stuff could be genetic from parents and family members, and that's true, my mother and granny used to be social phobics too. but they never used to be so extremely severe anxious. but they sure did have a form of sa, and my mom learned to feel relaxed around people by doing breathing exercises, and my grandma just knew nothing bad happened when she is around people, but sometimes she still faints because she has agoraphobia, but after all my mom and granny have made so much progress=)
so that's totally true, and other gene's, like characterisms and looks.
and we talked about the dgt, what it goes like. we talked about moving out, she told me its a good step, although i might go to a huge change, it will work for me. Because i need to be around people, i agree, its the step to get rid of sa, because being around people is the key, but still its terrifying for me.
it has been a good day today!
Having a hard time...
I was having a panic attack, and I sent my therapist a Txt message (she told me I could call her when I was feeling afraid (she offers telephone consultation as well) but i was too afraid to call her. So we've txted, she told me we're going to discuss it soon, and we will find what helps me.
she told me she could see how much i was fighting, she wants to talk about it in the next session.
First Group Session
Monday I've been seeing my individual coach, so now finally the group session starts! (thursday) I was too early, 30 min before my session started.
G was walking across the waiting line and she said, Oh you are pretty early, we could talk somewhat. She just told a girl to go ahead smoke her cigarette outside, i thought that girl could possibly one of the other group participants.
So we walked to her office place and we started talking. she told me i was very brave by sending her a txt message, she offered me her phone and she said, I was just txting you did you recieve my txt? I said No.. My phone is off because I don't like to get called in a waiting line. She said read this, I read she wished me luck for the group session, i thanked her so we talked a bit about txting and stuff she said if you don't like to call you can txt me. but u know when u call i think it helps better, so if you ever got the gutts to call, just try and i'll be answering , but u know i have things to do as well, so i cannot always answer directly but i try asap.
The clock ticked to 2:00 PM. I had to go to group therapy, I walked to the other department and I knocked the door and I walked into the room. I saw my group trainers and I saw another girl. I introduced myself to my group trainers and to K. (i call her K) I took my place next to the girl because I saw my name written on the map on this place. K smiled friendly, i smiled back and my trainers J and C told me it's very good that I'm here and they are happy about it that I didn't avoid it. I felt a bit uncomfortable when she told me that, but I knew It's my issue and I should not be ashamed of my sa.
I saw that the girl next to me was looking very nervous as well and she was grinning a lot lol, i couldn't help but i had to laugh too, because of nerves.
Then sudden So came in, (I call her So), she ran to her place, i saw she was really anxious, and she took place next to me. My trainers welcomed her, and she has a really deep quiet voice, she seemed prety sa to me.
My trainers told us T was still having issues with the bus so she will arrive later so we started the group session. My trainers told us to introduce ourselfes, and the trainers started, C told us she lives in the same place like me, she liked this therapy alot so she wanted to learn about it and she wants to help us. J told us she is a psychologist and she is very interested in the borderline/anxiety problematics. K was the first one to introduce, she told us she is doing fashion education at school (or however i should call it, lol i dunno how to say in english) I was the next person, I told them my name, age, location, and that i'm not at college right now but I want to start again soon and that I love making music and singing. So told us she is not in school as well, and she loves drawing. the trainers told us we were all very creative
They told about DGT after it, and we needed to focus on objects for 2 min, and not concentrate on other people. Everybody found it very hard because they were having thoughts, we could not share our thoughts because we felt uncomfortable, and i told them i cannot focus at one point when I'm having too many thoughts.
After it T came in, she was a bit different than the others, she could not really relate to the problems we were talking about, because she never suffers from anxiety and stuff, she just is very mad very often and some more a like things like we do suffer from as well, but she seems a nice person too.:]
then we opened our map, we had to sign our last autograph, so we could really make a start.
rules of the therapy:
clients do their best to the maximum
clients want to learn, want to make a change
to change clients have to work on themselfes
clients are mostly not responsible for the problems they have, but sadly they are the one who need to fix it.
clients never fail in our therapy.
More soon....
Hello all, I follow a group therapy and individual therapy. I have a contract signed for about one year. I hope many of these sessions will help me a lot and i hope to get out of my social phobia behaviour to get rid of sa or at least to see improvement in my life. It is a very intensive therapy, DGT. Dialectical behavioral therapy. To teach you to accept yourself with this therapy mind fulness. and see things in a different perspective. You also learn to get a grip on your emotions. I got diagnosed with social phobia and I have symptoms of borderline personality disorder. I have very strong feelings and i have very shaky mood swings. I often have a sense of emptiness, and I have separation anxiety and fear of commitment. I would like to improve my life and get my life on track and just go out the door again without fear. I'm going to fight. I'll keep in the journal how it all goes and what I learn every time.
meeting my individual therapist
Today i've met my therapist, my taxi brought me to the wrong building, so i need to walk 10 min to another building.. oops. I had to call the taxi again to pick me up at this place. But i had a good conversation with G. (i call my therapist G on the journal ) G told me that she read about my life and she told me that DGT could offer a lot for me. She described how people are affected by their emotions, feeling lost because people think it's simple and easy, while we are suffering as a victim in our own routine. She told me that my anxiety and other related stuff could be genetic from parents and family members, and that's true, my mother and granny used to be social phobics too. but they never used to be so extremely severe anxious. but they sure did have a form of sa, and my mom learned to feel relaxed around people by doing breathing exercises, and my grandma just knew nothing bad happened when she is around people, but sometimes she still faints because she has agoraphobia, but after all my mom and granny have made so much progress=)
so that's totally true, and other gene's, like characterisms and looks.
and we talked about the dgt, what it goes like. we talked about moving out, she told me its a good step, although i might go to a huge change, it will work for me. Because i need to be around people, i agree, its the step to get rid of sa, because being around people is the key, but still its terrifying for me.
it has been a good day today!
Having a hard time...
I was having a panic attack, and I sent my therapist a Txt message (she told me I could call her when I was feeling afraid (she offers telephone consultation as well) but i was too afraid to call her. So we've txted, she told me we're going to discuss it soon, and we will find what helps me.
she told me she could see how much i was fighting, she wants to talk about it in the next session.
First Group Session
Monday I've been seeing my individual coach, so now finally the group session starts! (thursday) I was too early, 30 min before my session started.
G was walking across the waiting line and she said, Oh you are pretty early, we could talk somewhat. She just told a girl to go ahead smoke her cigarette outside, i thought that girl could possibly one of the other group participants.
So we walked to her office place and we started talking. she told me i was very brave by sending her a txt message, she offered me her phone and she said, I was just txting you did you recieve my txt? I said No.. My phone is off because I don't like to get called in a waiting line. She said read this, I read she wished me luck for the group session, i thanked her so we talked a bit about txting and stuff she said if you don't like to call you can txt me. but u know when u call i think it helps better, so if you ever got the gutts to call, just try and i'll be answering , but u know i have things to do as well, so i cannot always answer directly but i try asap.
The clock ticked to 2:00 PM. I had to go to group therapy, I walked to the other department and I knocked the door and I walked into the room. I saw my group trainers and I saw another girl. I introduced myself to my group trainers and to K. (i call her K) I took my place next to the girl because I saw my name written on the map on this place. K smiled friendly, i smiled back and my trainers J and C told me it's very good that I'm here and they are happy about it that I didn't avoid it. I felt a bit uncomfortable when she told me that, but I knew It's my issue and I should not be ashamed of my sa.
I saw that the girl next to me was looking very nervous as well and she was grinning a lot lol, i couldn't help but i had to laugh too, because of nerves.
Then sudden So came in, (I call her So), she ran to her place, i saw she was really anxious, and she took place next to me. My trainers welcomed her, and she has a really deep quiet voice, she seemed prety sa to me.
My trainers told us T was still having issues with the bus so she will arrive later so we started the group session. My trainers told us to introduce ourselfes, and the trainers started, C told us she lives in the same place like me, she liked this therapy alot so she wanted to learn about it and she wants to help us. J told us she is a psychologist and she is very interested in the borderline/anxiety problematics. K was the first one to introduce, she told us she is doing fashion education at school (or however i should call it, lol i dunno how to say in english) I was the next person, I told them my name, age, location, and that i'm not at college right now but I want to start again soon and that I love making music and singing. So told us she is not in school as well, and she loves drawing. the trainers told us we were all very creative
They told about DGT after it, and we needed to focus on objects for 2 min, and not concentrate on other people. Everybody found it very hard because they were having thoughts, we could not share our thoughts because we felt uncomfortable, and i told them i cannot focus at one point when I'm having too many thoughts.
After it T came in, she was a bit different than the others, she could not really relate to the problems we were talking about, because she never suffers from anxiety and stuff, she just is very mad very often and some more a like things like we do suffer from as well, but she seems a nice person too.:]
then we opened our map, we had to sign our last autograph, so we could really make a start.
rules of the therapy:
clients do their best to the maximum
clients want to learn, want to make a change
to change clients have to work on themselfes
clients are mostly not responsible for the problems they have, but sadly they are the one who need to fix it.
clients never fail in our therapy.
More soon....