Loyal's Thoughts
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LoyalXenite
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Nope, but i have a fan that is fast becoming my new best friend
Turn that baby on HIGH and go throw some water on your head/arms and get in front of it. Kind of a swamp cooler affect.
LoyalXenite
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Haha i've actually never lived anywhere with an air conditioner, i consider myself incredibly lucky to have a working fan 
Haha i've actually never lived anywhere with an air conditioner, i consider myself incredibly lucky to have a working fan
At least you're staying positive :thumbup:
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Really should clean, but im so tempted to just go shower and then go to bed.
Have to go vote tomorrow, not looking forward to the long lines at all >.<
Have to go vote tomorrow, not looking forward to the long lines at all >.<
LoyalXenite
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Getting so sick of my rib hurting, and now im out of pain meds so im REALLY feeling it, got enough for one more night of pain controlled sleep... but then im suffering this pain 24/7 :'(
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managed to get ahold of some decent pain meds for my broken rib, so the last few days havent been too bad. My partner? (my ex who im back with but not too sure how to term our relationship) has been taking care of me a significant amount the last few days, which has been a huge relief for me.
So despite the pain i've been feeling quite positive the last few days, i also got my scholarship so managed to buy several things i needed (and a couple i didnt need )
So despite the pain i've been feeling quite positive the last few days, i also got my scholarship so managed to buy several things i needed (and a couple i didnt need
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feeling very overwhelmed by the pile of folding that i should do before i go to bed, i think i may just sleep in the pile and deal with it and the rest of the cleaning in the morning.. then attempt to do some uni work... its halfway through the semester (almost) and i have only done one lesson from one class and practically nothing for the other 3 classes, Really i have done barely anything for the entire course this semester. Im quite concerned that i may have to defer this semester because i dont know if i can catch up in time, but im going to try.
LoyalXenite
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Having some difficulties tonight.
my mind seems determined to torment me, im constantly plagued with images and thoughts of all the shit thats happened the last few years, which then leads into all the shit thats happened my whole life... trying to maintain some sense of control until im able to sleep..
my mind seems determined to torment me, im constantly plagued with images and thoughts of all the shit thats happened the last few years, which then leads into all the shit thats happened my whole life... trying to maintain some sense of control until im able to sleep..
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I feel so disappointed and angry with myself.
Between the virus, the broken rib, my breakdown and just the stress of everything. I fell too far behind in uni, so i have to defer this semester and go back next year, means im at uni for an extra semester or even extra year depending on if certain subjects are available at the time.
I'm trying to stay strong, telling myself this is a good thing. It gives me a chance to fix myself somewhat, before uni starts next semester. Try and get myself a bit better so i can do much better, start fresh.
But i cant help but feel so miserable with myself.
Between the virus, the broken rib, my breakdown and just the stress of everything. I fell too far behind in uni, so i have to defer this semester and go back next year, means im at uni for an extra semester or even extra year depending on if certain subjects are available at the time.
I'm trying to stay strong, telling myself this is a good thing. It gives me a chance to fix myself somewhat, before uni starts next semester. Try and get myself a bit better so i can do much better, start fresh.
But i cant help but feel so miserable with myself.
LoyalXenite
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Hey guys... Im back...
Things fell apart pretty sufficiently and I just had a meltdown.. As a result I disappeared from this site (along with many others)... Things are better now, but I've been feeling a need to come back here again. So here I am..
Im back at Uni, but struggling with concentration and managing to pass. My work is no where near the level it used to be.
Im back living with my partner, and we seem to be doing ok, today is technically our 3 year anniversary. She is out at the moment and Im failing to pay attention to my uni work so I thought I'd pop on this site again.
I got a dog, a gorgeous, female, English staffy x American staffy. Her name is Arya and she is great. Havign her has helped considerably with my anxiety when I have to leave the house, if only I could take her with me everywhere.
My rib healed completely and I finally got rid of that chronic bronchitis. But it left me quite weak and I never really got stronger, but I suspect that is also the depressions impact.
I've distanced myself considerably from my family and all their negativity which is helping but has left me feeling rather alone. Add to this the fact that my friends pretty much shut me out when I had my meltdown and ignored my calls/texts/attempts to contact them and hang out/etc. But I have my dog now so stuff them all I say.
Oh also in my meltdown I did the cliche shaving of the head. For a fresh start in my mind, since it was dead anyway. Its probably about 6 cm long now and sticks straight up still, giving me the look of a porcupine.
Guess thats all I can think of really...
Hi to everyone
Things fell apart pretty sufficiently and I just had a meltdown.. As a result I disappeared from this site (along with many others)... Things are better now, but I've been feeling a need to come back here again. So here I am..
Im back at Uni, but struggling with concentration and managing to pass. My work is no where near the level it used to be.
Im back living with my partner, and we seem to be doing ok, today is technically our 3 year anniversary. She is out at the moment and Im failing to pay attention to my uni work so I thought I'd pop on this site again.
I got a dog, a gorgeous, female, English staffy x American staffy. Her name is Arya and she is great. Havign her has helped considerably with my anxiety when I have to leave the house, if only I could take her with me everywhere.
My rib healed completely and I finally got rid of that chronic bronchitis. But it left me quite weak and I never really got stronger, but I suspect that is also the depressions impact.
I've distanced myself considerably from my family and all their negativity which is helping but has left me feeling rather alone. Add to this the fact that my friends pretty much shut me out when I had my meltdown and ignored my calls/texts/attempts to contact them and hang out/etc. But I have my dog now so stuff them all I say.
Oh also in my meltdown I did the cliche shaving of the head. For a fresh start in my mind, since it was dead anyway. Its probably about 6 cm long now and sticks straight up still, giving me the look of a porcupine.
Guess thats all I can think of really...
Hi to everyone
LoyalXenite
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Thanks. But, Im back on the road to recovery now, even calling to arrange a new therapist tomorrow. I might still be struggling, but Im still fighting too :thumbup:
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Getting very frustrated with my uni work. Aside from the fact that my essays are coming back with barely passing marks, Im struggling to focus and remember anything in lectures or tutorials.
On the more positive side, tonight my partner and I are celebrating our 3 year anniversary (a day late as she was busy with uni and such yesterday) and having a nice dinner at home. (We cant go out coz our dog cannot be left home alone and restaurants dont let dogs in )
On the more positive side, tonight my partner and I are celebrating our 3 year anniversary (a day late as she was busy with uni and such yesterday) and having a nice dinner at home. (We cant go out coz our dog cannot be left home alone and restaurants dont let dogs in
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