recluse
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For the past month o'r so i have sunk into depression and following a friend urging me to get help i did just that last week. I'm now on meds again after having been off them since 2009.
The thing that bothers me is that i am very conscious that i've become quieter than ever. Now i can count on one hand probably how many words i utter in day. I was always a quiet guy all my life anyway but this is different....I feel dead. I cannot think of anything to talk about and i can't think of responces to things said to me/how to maintain a conversation.
My mind is so filled with negative thoughts and past memories it's impossible, and on the other hand my mind is totally blank of any ideas to talk about. I also have no motivation to talk to people. Don't get me wrong i am still polite and i won't ignore anyone but i have little motivation to be around people though i yearn for companionship.
I cannot remember the last time i had a flowing convo with anyone...Several years ago i think, instead i merely utter some words which never flow into a convo. It feels like a lifetime when i laughed too.....I mean a genuine laugh.
The thing that bothers me is that i am very conscious that i've become quieter than ever. Now i can count on one hand probably how many words i utter in day. I was always a quiet guy all my life anyway but this is different....I feel dead. I cannot think of anything to talk about and i can't think of responces to things said to me/how to maintain a conversation.
My mind is so filled with negative thoughts and past memories it's impossible, and on the other hand my mind is totally blank of any ideas to talk about. I also have no motivation to talk to people. Don't get me wrong i am still polite and i won't ignore anyone but i have little motivation to be around people though i yearn for companionship.
I cannot remember the last time i had a flowing convo with anyone...Several years ago i think, instead i merely utter some words which never flow into a convo. It feels like a lifetime when i laughed too.....I mean a genuine laugh.