i'm in a mental hospital :(

Falkor

Falkor

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Hello everybody,

I'm in a mental hospital, i got there three days ago.

The reason is : I haven't been sleeping for 5 nights, and I started to hallucinate and faint every single day.

So, today is a schoolday.

And my teacher warned me:

If you keep on being sick at your internship, they might stretch the duration,
I told him, I have a very good reason, cuz I'm in the hospital, I haven't slept for 5 nights and I started to hallucinate and fainted multiples times a day. I totally lost myself.

Right now,

I'm totally afraid of my teacher.

What he thinks, he could think I'm insane.

I also will go to internship NOW everyday on time, and no sicknesses anymore.

They are soo strict, but it's really hard for me to follow it. But I don't want it to stretch!!!

YIKES.

I'm so terrified.

I stay at the hospital every night, and go to school by bike. I am going here because I know how strict they are, if they weren't, i would just stay because I'm really sick, and feel psychically really unwell. I had a psychosis and hallucination, i only told my taecher about the hallucinations though and he looked at me like, hmm, okay. thats weird.

And he told me I look fine and healthy, I only don't look like I did my hair, it looks messy and my clothes.

And he's right, because I don't have anything there, I have to buy it today because the stores were closed. And I don't have anything to do my hair, so it looks like a garbage.

Oh, god, everybody looks at me in the class and in the canteen like I am a dirty old woman from the streets, wtf I feel terrible I can cry...
 
kihira

kihira

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Get well Saskia, plenty of sleep! Health first, school second :)
 
Dinosaur

Dinosaur

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There is nothing more important than your health.Just concentrate on getting healthy first and worry about the other stuff later.Hope you get better soon
 
recluse

recluse

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I'm sorry to hear what you are going through which must be terrible. I hope things gte better soon hugs.
 
Nanita

Nanita

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Like others wrote, you and your health is more important than school or anything else surrounding you. Don´t be strict with yourself, it can cause stress and you don´t need more stress right now.
Hugs
 
coyote

coyote

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sorry to hear how rough things are right now

just keep trying to do the next right thing

one step at a time

you'll be ok
 
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Icepep

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Can't you get an official "note" that is saying you are sick? Like from a doctor or other people at the hospital? So if you lose important classes or anything like that, you have a vaild (and documented) reason.
 
Falkor

Falkor

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Remus said:
Sorry to hear that mate, what have they diagnosed you with?
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Panic attacks, social phobia, hypochondriac (they are thinking off), bipolar (they are thinking off), and i am diagnosed with borderline at my 18th year in another clinic.

it's so rough my life. but also i just wanna have a mask, because otherwise people might treat me like my parents, ''you have problems so we need rest from you''

I didn't chose this! I hate my friggin' disorders, and my parents are tired of me , pff:(:(:(:( i hate myself.
 
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Facethefear

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Don't fight it - take the help they are offering you. This is the time to work on your health. Forgive your parent's for not understanding. You must accept yourself and never say never.
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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You're very strong Sassy, hang in there. I'm sorry you're teachers are that strict. I hope you feel better real soon. ((hugs))
 
Falkor

Falkor

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Thank you all dear sweeties!

It's going much better all right!!

I will move to an own place, and I am doing well now.

Social Phobia is less because I take Zyprexa

and the negative/paranoid thoughts and being upset.

I am very very happy that I can enjoy this day.

It's going much better.

I'm still at the clinic but they treat me very nicely , sweet kind people , and i do feel weird about the ''mental hospital'' thingy, but i am totally normal, im a wise girl :) and i am here to fight and get less afraid of things ^_^

so yeaahhh, its going much better

yippy
 
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