Desecrated
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honestly, as long as I can remember I feel like I'm never reacting to situations, but acting, performing my way through - it's gotten to the point where I really don't know who I actually am. I don't know what things I like and what things I don't because I just fake my responses. How do you not know if you like something or not?! and it gets worse during one on one interactions - not just when i'm out and about in society. Would I speak to anyone? Ever? Would I ever look into someone else's eyes or smile? Is anything I do indicative of who I really am, or just a contrived nothing? And how do I STOP doing this?