Since I have Hypertension, Hyperhidrosis and I have been sort of Hyperactive my whole live, I am guessing all my symtoms, sweating, stress and blushing originates from the same place in the brain and thus I hope Clonidine can be the right drug for me since it is basically used to treat all my symtoms - high blood pressure, sweating and hyperactivness (mild sedative). So I am hoping it will help me stop blushing, or at least blush less and help me not give a ****.
My blushing problem comes in periods. I haven't been thinking too much about it for a long time, but now when it becomes warmer and the daylight is stronger I am more prone to blushing. I don't think my blushing is extreme though. I never flush, I cannot flush and I am southern european so I am far from pale. I think I blush as "normal" people do. I get a little war, probably some redness in the face but it also goes away fairly quick. The problem is though that it comes on so easily and at the wrong times. It would be okay if it only came when giving speeches and stuff, but sitting amongst friends and stuff like that...I just ****ing hate it.
I noticed a lot of people blush though. It's totally normal. I point it out myself to people sometimes (I know I shouldn't) just to see if they react like me and when I do, I see they are more prone to blushing. It's when you start obsessing with it that it becomes a problem.
I don't think there is a total cure for blushing (flushing is totally different aspect) because EVERYONE is a potential blusher. It's how we are anatomically built. The one that cannot blush is the one that is different. BUT, most people don't obsess about it and so they dont even care and it happens less frequently. They might be in a social situation thinking about what to eat tonight while you are a total wreck about not trying to blush.
I personally have periods when I have a "high" and I don't even blush. I can sit at a table and have no problem about socializing. Actually, most usually I can socialize without a problem. My social phobia is not so bad because I love talking to people. I don't fear them at all. I have no problem at keeping a topic alive and quite often I am the central of the debate because people dont know what to say.
The ONLY problem I have is with blushing. That is what is holding me back. That is the ONLY thing that gives me anxiety. The blushing is not a symtom of the anxiety, it IS the anxiety. If I didn't blush, I would rule the ****ing world. That's how I feel. Sometimes I think to myself "maybe I was ment to live with this, otherwise I might have been a total *******".
I blush, but people love me. Never once has anyone turned their back on me because I show signs of weakness when I blush because they know I am not weak and they know I can fight back and that I am smart and have a lot going for me.
So in the end, maybe I am better of as a blusher. Who knows what kind of miserable **** I would have been otherwise. Cocky, self-centered and...alone.