I am so depressed


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Well I think there is a fine line between being an asshole and not being one, when trying to be "real."

The problem is, I feel like shit most of the time, and don't really feel like engaging people. It's much harder to be real in this case without being an asshole. And I don't want to be an asshole to other people because odds are they probably don't deserve it. If I were happier and settled down in life, I think being real would come much easier.

Also, I've developed these obsequious habits over the years (probably since the age of 10) which are engrained into how I interact with people. They are almost unconscious at this point, but perhaps more noticeable with the be-real mindset. I am noticing when I am saying or doing things that are done to get people to like me, rather than for some other, less fucking stupid purpose, like you know, actually doing or saying something because I want to, for me, and no one else.
Being real is easier said than done.

Yep, to let your guard down and be your true-self in public, takes a lot of courage that's for sure.

Yea true.
I think I've come to the realization that the game is played on different levels, with the only time you can be totally "real" is when you are on your own in your home environment. Apart from that everyone is putting on a mask of some sort, I don't care who they are.
Different masks for different situations.

Well said, Pug! That's the damn truth right there. (y)
1) Talk to more people, more often, even if it fucking sucks.
2) Stop stressing the fuck out about work so much.
3) Embrace the pain.
4) Take it day by day.
5) Allow yourself some free time to ENJOY life.
6) Attack your weaknesses.