Haha, maybe she was. :lol:
I really do feel like I only want to go because I feel obligated. Like I get nervous about what people will say the following at Monday at work. Like, "where were you on Saturday!? It was great!" yeah, as if people would even notice that much or say anything about my not being there.
And it's like, I've been there before. Going to a big social gathering and I've been nervous, yet thought it would be a fun time (as everyone else seems to have fun), yet I was so anxious and awkward the whole time and barely talked to anyone, that I just felt like crap afterwards and didn't even enjoy myself.
I just want to spend my Saturday watching TV, movies, and playing video games, damnit! It's so strange how I feel pressured to be social or something, yet I would be perfectly content just sitting home by myself. Though there's still that damn part of me that just wants to be a social butterfly and have a good time.
Aww lol, that's nice that she seemed to be asking you in a roundabout way. Don't feel bad, I'd prob miss that hint too. lol. And I seriously have no one to go with. Like I don't really even have an acquaintance who I could ask to be my "date" for the night. (I don't even know if I could ever gather the courage to ask a guy out!) Everyone at my work seems to have a damn boy friend or girl friend too. All I hear is people talking about their significant others, while I'm sitting there thinking like, "oh, cool, yeah, no, I can't relate to you at all when you talk to me about dating."
