How are you feeling?

vj288

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
I don't know, I feel like I have nothing to look forward to. Night time comes and I feel like I have no reason to go to bed, because morning will come and then I won't get up because I'll nothing to get up for. I know exactly what I'd tell myself if I were someone else, but I don't seem to want to take my own advice. I'm just wasting time every day, really not doing anything with all the minutes I have at my disposal to do with whatever I want. I could write a book, train for a marathon, plant a garden, learn to cook (well), look for jobs, volunteer, meditate, reflect, introspect, grow, and a million other productive things. Instead I do nothing, watch the world cup and wait until I have to go to work. I thought it was because I was tired, but 0 hours or 12 hours, I still feel lethargic upon waking. And I'm irritable all the time, something that has been building up in me for a few years to the point it is becoming a problem from a point where it was the total opposite at one point. I was giving the guy I work with extreme cold shoulder for no good reason (I had reasons, none good though) and am so stubborn I wouldn't let myself enjoy the shift. I really feel like in personality I've become an ***, a ****, just someone who is not mindful and who doesn't have things in perspective. I don't even enjoy posting or talking online much anymore because I feel I've become mean and inconsiderate and hate seeing that side of me taking over.

That is some things I am feeling.
 
LoyalXenite

LoyalXenite

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springk said:
I am wondering how long will I be hooked on to the Internet. Days will pass and years will pass ..and with each passing moment I will be older. How will look when I will be 50 with nothing to proud, no real life friend, no human to hold my hand or talk to me in person. I wonder if then also I will visit random sites and forums just in the hope of some company or talk? Pretty depressing.
I know I don't this kind of existence. I want to laugh, talk and feel the love of a friend. For that I also want to endeavour. But how?
My friends( one or two) are away..all I can do is talk on phone. The one I thought as friend is no good. Finding love ..looks impossible.
I just wish that this struggle to have some company would just end. I sleep for eternity if there was such thing and not bother about my feelings any longer.
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I often feel the same way, but then im like if im not online im just going to be reading or playing video games anyway. At least this way i get some form of so******ing.

What I really miss is hand written letters.. I miss having pen pals
 
LoyalXenite

LoyalXenite

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LoyalXenite said:
I often feel the same way, but then im like if im not online im just going to be reading or playing video games anyway. At least this way i get some form of so******ing.

What I really miss is hand written letters.. I miss having pen pals
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Why is there stars in socializing ?
 
MikeyC

MikeyC

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jc972 said:
Pretty bad. Just found out that my youngest child has a hole in his heart. I'm upset.
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This is awful news. What does this mean, though? How did you find out something was wrong initially?

vj288 said:
I don't know, I feel like I have nothing to look forward to. Night time comes and I feel like I have no reason to go to bed, because morning will come and then I won't get up because I'll nothing to get up for. I know exactly what I'd tell myself if I were someone else, but I don't seem to want to take my own advice. I'm just wasting time every day, really not doing anything with all the minutes I have at my disposal to do with whatever I want. I could write a book, train for a marathon, plant a garden, learn to cook (well), look for jobs, volunteer, meditate, reflect, introspect, grow, and a million other productive things. Instead I do nothing, watch the world cup and wait until I have to go to work. I thought it was because I was tired, but 0 hours or 12 hours, I still feel lethargic upon waking. And I'm irritable all the time, something that has been building up in me for a few years to the point it is becoming a problem from a point where it was the total opposite at one point. I was giving the guy I work with extreme cold shoulder for no good reason (I had reasons, none good though) and am so stubborn I wouldn't let myself enjoy the shift. I really feel like in personality I've become an ***, a ****, just someone who is not mindful and who doesn't have things in perspective. I don't even enjoy posting or talking online much anymore because I feel I've become mean and inconsiderate and hate seeing that side of me taking over.

That is some things I am feeling.
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You mentioned things you could do, such as cooking, gardening, running, and so on, so I think what you lack is the intrinsic motivation to undertake these things. You just need to force it the first couple of times, and after that you'll probably enjoy it and want to continue.

The trick is not to expect instant results from your hobbies, and not to expect to be completely invested at the start. You might start gardening and think it's the most boring thing in the world, and that's okay.

Take that step, my friend. You won't regret it. :)

LoyalXenite said:
What I really miss is hand written letters.. I miss having pen pals
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I pen pal someone from this website occasionally. It's nice. I think there are websites you can go on to find pen pals. It screams irony, though, haha.
 
MikeyC

MikeyC

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First semester of university is officially completed! :thumbup:

Attempted my final exam today, so I hope I get a decent mark for it. I'll be happy with a credit, but a distinction would be nice (although slightly unrealistic when compared to my marks I've gotten for my essay and other quizzes).

I'm happy I made it to the end of the semester. It's a massive personal achievement and one not taken lightly. Considering I always thought university is "what other people did," it's nice to be a part of those people. Next semester is going to be tougher but I'm savouring this right now. :)
 
TreeBones

TreeBones

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MikeyC said:
First semester of university is officially completed! :thumbup:

Attempted my final exam today, so I hope I get a decent mark for it. I'll be happy with a credit, but a distinction would be nice (although slightly unrealistic when compared to my marks I've gotten for my essay and other quizzes).

I'm happy I made it to the end of the semester. It's a massive personal achievement and one not taken lightly. Considering I always thought university is "what other people did," it's nice to be a part of those people. Next semester is going to be tougher but I'm savouring this right now. :)
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Congratulations :thumbup:
 
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