My mom and I are going to see my grandma for her birthday. I always dread visiting her. In the end, it almost always turns out fine, but I still panic anyway.
How are you feeling?
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we_r_eternal
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this is my first ever post in an internet forum, not just my maiden voyage for this website! so please bare with me! I was seriously desperate to die yesterday and nearly every moment of everyday the past few weeks iv had nothing but suicide on the brain. But today is better. it's chemically induced which is pretty much the only way i can feel ok about being me. a combination of xanax and methadone will make even the most depressed person feel ok for the day! but i seriously do not recommend or endorse that any of you folks do the same- it'll make you more depressed and suicidal in the long run if you become addicted. but either way it's great to be able to post my feelings and attempt to both vent and communicate with the world. iv literally only spoken a few sentences in the past 2 weeks so this is a good positive outlet for me. im happy to know that websites for people like me exist because that lets me know that there is plenty of other people like me out there in the world and im not the only one who feels this way and suffers from the same debilitating condition that i do. I'm so very lonely and would love to find people like myself to talk to. I need friends badly. Id love to talk to a female someday soon and the internet provides a good, safe forum for open and honest communication with girls. my one question to everyone is whether you all have boyfriends or girlfriends. I read one post from a guy who is 30years old and never even had a date before- and he actually was admitting that girls who were prospective dates on a dating site. I thought that was an awful idea to put that out there before ever dating a person. i felt horrible for him- he's sabotaging any chance of getting anywhere with girls by saying that outright before ever meeting or even communicating with possible dates! He didn't seem to get it either, i just really felt bad for him- so clueless that he's clueless yet he has the evidence of being not only a 30year old virgin but never even had a date! i personally wouldve killed myself by then so i'm glad he has the strength to carry on thru that! good luck dude! im rootin for ya!!
Rembrandt Broam
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CosmicNeurotica
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Can't watch these god damn movies with people falling in love :|
dyingtolive
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was doing ok and then i woke up.. after .5 seconds, it sunk in that this nightmare of a life was here and didn't just magically go away. wish everything could be ok again.. . . . . .
BlueDays
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I can really relate to that.
I hope things pick up for you.
feeling so sick of my headcold :/
Good....
Kiwong
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20km this morning. I felt so exhausted and it hurt so bad at 17km that I felt like I ripped a new orifice right into the core of me.
I imagined how hard it is going to hurt when I run my first marathon and then how wonderful it will be when I cross that finish line, and realise what I have accomplished.
I imagined how hard it is going to hurt when I run my first marathon and then how wonderful it will be when I cross that finish line, and realise what I have accomplished.
Is she a particularly fearsome lady?
She has been the source of some of my worst moments and can say things that cut straight through my soul. She's old and falling apart now and is much 'tamer,' but I still fear her. Today went well, but my mother was there to diffuse any possible tension.
GhoulsNightOut
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Really lonely.
theslowesthand
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Feeling flat-as-a-pancake, as per usual, and cold as f*ck, but who in this world gives a sh*t - is my problem & my problem alone...
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Apotheosis
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Feeling good. My school has an amazing gym so I can get real workouts now. No more 35lb curls & squats repeated ad nauseam.
Tree's are pretty motivated. They keep growing year after year, and even after they see they're hardly growing at all, they keep trying
Deus_Ex_Lemur
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Until the lumberjack cuts it down and sends it to get carved up into the very desk you have your computer on and are typing all your unmotivated angst. Wow... blew my mind.
Danfalc
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A little rough physically, I maybe jumped the gun thinking I was coming out the other side. But it really is a tiny bit easier every day now.
Mentally, I feel like I have my clarity of thought back, my emotions have come flooding back, my body clock is back to waking me up at 7 every morning without fail, which is nice.
I'm feeling a little anti social and depressed, but apparently that's normal, I'm dealing with a lot of issues I was too numb to deal with before. And I am frustrated as hell at being stuck in, but considering I have SA I'm seeing that as a good thing.
Mentally, I feel like I have my clarity of thought back, my emotions have come flooding back, my body clock is back to waking me up at 7 every morning without fail, which is nice.
I'm feeling a little anti social and depressed, but apparently that's normal, I'm dealing with a lot of issues I was too numb to deal with before. And I am frustrated as hell at being stuck in, but considering I have SA I'm seeing that as a good thing.