How are you feeling?

MrJones

Well-known member
no - tell us what's going on there

sounds interesting
Not one bit. What's going on there?

Wikipedia knows everything:
2011 Spanish protests - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Mostly because of economic problems, two-party system between PSOE and PP, unemployement, for a big change in state politics (Real democracy NOW).

There are pacific protests all around Spain and some spanish people from other countries are showing their displeasure with the current situation too.

hough the protests are pacific, nearly 500 Mossos d'Esquadra and Guàrdia Urbana (police) went yesterday to Plaça Catalunya (Barcelona) to "clean it up". As you can imagine, the "cleaning" ended up with violence, the cops beating people that were just there, sitting, unprotected, even old people...
 
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Beatrice

Guest
The same as I have been the last few days :/

Feeling kind of down after reading a certain thread about the nature of this site.... I guess for a while this place was making me feel so much better. I thought maybe I could get a little help here, and support, and felt like I belonged. And for a while, that was the case. But after reading all that now I feel like...... well I guess I fully realized, it's just an Internet forum :( I'm separated from all of these people by a computer screen, and by distance. They're not really my friends. There's not really anyone there. I may as well be talking to an imaginary friend.... It's just an illusion that makes you feel better until you wake up and realize the truth. And then you're left feeling lonely and depressed again.

It kills me but I really have no one :( I know I'm not the only one, but... ugh. Everything just feels so bleak. I don't know what the point is of continuing to "survive" and not "live". Just because your heart's still beating? What about quality of life?

I don't want to continue "surviving" for the rest of my life.

Sorry to be so depressing, just feel so awful lately. I give up :(
 

dyingtolive

Well-known member
lol junkfood is the sux. killed my diet the past couple of days too but lookin 2 go bak on track.

Food sensitivy just kinda gets worse and worse, like a drug. The more junk, the less you taste it. But if u take it away, food tastes better so it cancels each other out! goodluck to us
 

Paahi

Well-known member
The same as I have been the last few days :/

Feeling kind of down after reading a certain thread about the nature of this site.... I guess for a while this place was making me feel so much better. I thought maybe I could get a little help here, and support, and felt like I belonged. And for a while, that was the case. But after reading all that now I feel like...... well I guess I fully realized, it's just an Internet forum :( I'm separated from all of these people by a computer screen, and by distance. They're not really my friends. There's not really anyone there. I may as well be talking to an imaginary friend.... It's just an illusion that makes you feel better until you wake up and realize the truth. And then you're left feeling lonely and depressed again.

It kills me but I really have no one :( I know I'm not the only one, but... ugh. Everything just feels so bleak. I don't know what the point is of continuing to "survive" and not "live". Just because your heart's still beating? What about quality of life?

I don't want to continue "surviving" for the rest of my life.

Sorry to be so depressing, just feel so awful lately. I give up :(

I know how you feel and I know that it will get better.
Thats why you have to keep surviving!
 

dyingtolive

Well-known member
The same as I have been the last few days :/

Feeling kind of down after reading a certain thread about the nature of this site.... I guess for a while this place was making me feel so much better. I thought maybe I could get a little help here, and support, and felt like I belonged. And for a while, that was the case. But after reading all that now I feel like...... well I guess I fully realized, it's just an Internet forum :( I'm separated from all of these people by a computer screen, and by distance. They're not really my friends. There's not really anyone there. I may as well be talking to an imaginary friend.... It's just an illusion that makes you feel better until you wake up and realize the truth. And then you're left feeling lonely and depressed again.

It kills me but I really have no one :( I know I'm not the only one, but... ugh. Everything just feels so bleak. I don't know what the point is of continuing to "survive" and not "live". Just because your heart's still beating? What about quality of life?

I don't want to continue "surviving" for the rest of my life.

Sorry to be so depressing, just feel so awful lately. I give up :(

Thats ok Beatrice. Yeah, living is the goal. :) its ok to be depressing sometimes. Definitely this is not an illusion though.. this (place) is real for all of us going thru this. I don't even consider it that much a curse right now, we could even be lucky coz there may be a lot of depressed people out there who never really thought they had SA and neve really stumbled upon a place like this, its just a coincidence that we got a forum we can vent out on.

Sometimes, i come in these sites and i treat it like im just typing words infront of a screen.. and thats what i get in return as well. Not everyday is a good day, some feel empty, some days i can connect to someone. In cyberspace and in real life, its the same,, not really just in cyberspace

i dont mind that these peeps arent 'real friends'.. though over the years i have stayed connected with a couple of people and i still wonder how the others who i met are still doing. i miss some peeps and i wouldnt be surprised if i heard from them again. i think these forums hold a special place for many people, its not just a forum for some! in a good way
 

Deus_Ex_Lemur

Well-known member
The same as I have been the last few days :/

Feeling kind of down after reading a certain thread about the nature of this site.... I guess for a while this place was making me feel so much better. I thought maybe I could get a little help here, and support, and felt like I belonged. And for a while, that was the case. But after reading all that now I feel like...... well I guess I fully realized, it's just an Internet forum :( I'm separated from all of these people by a computer screen, and by distance. They're not really my friends. There's not really anyone there. I may as well be talking to an imaginary friend.... It's just an illusion that makes you feel better until you wake up and realize the truth. And then you're left feeling lonely and depressed again.

It kills me but I really have no one :( I know I'm not the only one, but... ugh. Everything just feels so bleak. I don't know what the point is of continuing to "survive" and not "live". Just because your heart's still beating? What about quality of life?

I don't want to continue "surviving" for the rest of my life.

Sorry to be so depressing, just feel so awful lately. I give up :(

Where is this nature of this site thread? What rubbish. We ARE real... separated by distances and computer screens yes; there's interpretations done in your mind sure - but if you felt more support, better, belonging, that is REAL. That wasnt fake and imaginary. It became realized. As real as a movie making someone cry. You test those tears with someone who cried at a funeral, it's the same kind of tears, regardless why they were produced. Real emotion.

The real illusion is in your head, it's how you perceive it. This place cannot become a life - it's still virtual, so yes it's an "illusion" in that sense, yeah - but the sense of belonging, support, perceived friendships are REAL. It's not full - it's not complete... there's a lot that one cannot get from here, it can only go so far an online forum...

That's my struggle, I don't want this place to rule my whole life but, we ALL need SOCIAL SUPPORT - this place provides it partly yes, but we all need support in our RL's... it's a balance - that's where ultimately, we will be happiest. And our quality of life increases. RL = real interaction, touch, all the senses, getting out, proximity. But a place like this is more real than any other forum - Id love to actually meet a good few ppl here.

HOWEVER - when those things are not there at the time - a place like this imo can be VITAL - there's no illusion if it's eased your life in these bad times, I know it has for me, but I've tried to be realistic and balanced about it too. I mean... I know this place cannot fufill my whole social needs, it just can't, it can only go so far.

Anyways, I can rant on =) I just feel strongly this place is more than a mere online forum, but it is still bound by that, it's online, and can only ultimately do so much but that "much" is better than nothing... but it can't be your only source, we all need more. This is a roadstop to better things imo, to quality of life. We'll all get there.
 
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Beatrice

Guest
Yeah I guess you guys are right. When you're depressed your mind just tends to find any negative thing, however small, and blows it up into something of tragic proportions, because that's how everything feels when you're depressed.

Thanks for the responses, appreciate it as always.

It's nice out, maybe I should just go for a walk at the VERY least.
 

Deus_Ex_Lemur

Well-known member
I have a really bad headache and couldn't focus on the full messages, but from what I've just skim read let me just tell you one thing about internet forums that might make you feel better.

Two of my best friends, IN REAL LIFE, were people I originally met on an internet forum. There was a time when to me they were just avatars on a screen, then I met them, and I got on so much better with them because I'd told them more about myself than I would to strangers.

I'm not sure which thread you were reading Beatrice but don't let it upset you. Internet forums are what you make of them. Some people will never believe that they can be 'real', leave them to it. But they definitely CAN be real. It is human hands that write each post afterall.

Some people may never pursue the friendships they make online, but a lot of people do, and they can work. SPW is to you whatever you want it to be :)

Back to what I was originally going to post here: I have a headache. That's how I'm feeling ::(:

Well Ive never met anyone from online - I know from most experiences here, it usually doesnt lead further but of course it can. Double difficult being SA focused site =D BUT - just saying when it remains online - and for majority it does as majority dont live close to eachother. But it can always lead to RL interaction sure. But even so - online is meaningful. It can be such solace and I believe can be real friends online. But we do need RL support, NEED it literally. Cant all be online. =D But until thjen, perhaps leads more to that, it is something. Rather have this over nothing.

Btw hope your head feels better Twiggle. =/
 

KnuffleBunny

Well-known member
Bleh. I feel down. Been a tomboy all my life and now trying to become a 'girl' is messing with me. I'm afraid of becoming dependent on makeup to make me feel 'beautiful' when it used to be I felt perfectly fine about my appearance. =/
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
I feel I need to talk to someone who'd have the decency to listen to what I'm saying and understand for once. Because, with regards to my family right now, I can't help feeling completely ignored whenever I open my mouth. ::(:

Also, I've just realized in my head, I'm still stuck trying to come to terms with events that effect me and my family over 7 years ago. Because I never fully dealt with them at the time when I was 15, 16 years old.
 

Deus_Ex_Lemur

Well-known member
Bleh. I feel down. Been a tomboy all my life and now trying to become a 'girl' is messing with me. I'm afraid of becoming dependent on makeup to make me feel 'beautiful' when it used to be I felt perfectly fine about my appearance. =/

Why do you feel this way now? Imo most women tend to look better with minimal to no makeup, or complimenting features. Dont want to look like a raccoon or gunk face.
 

Ashonym

Member
I feel hopeless, helpless, and I miss my other half... who won't even email me these days. I feel doomed and rejected, unaccepted, disapproved of, disliked, reprimanded, and karmically out of sync.

I feel anticipating of Tuesday, because I go in for my first counselling appointment/assessment.

I feel...a strong need to do something I know I shouldn't and hopefully won't (regarding my personal life).
 
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