How are you feeling?
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Vampayah88
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Like staying in bed and doing nothing at all cause my every muscle hurts from exercising.. Not that I usually do much on the weekends anyway.
theslowesthand
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Sorry about that - i was just trying to grab your attention, and wasn't certain you'd read it.
Thought patterns take time to change, some take years, and some never seem to to be able to change. But while you're gradually "chipping away" (like creating a stone statue) at them, waiting for them to change, you can do things. And well done on this decision you've made. It will open-up some "possibilities" for you.
Having been severely depressed on many occasions in the past 10-15 years, I don't believe depression is irresversable. But i think it does alter some parts of the brain, in a rather long-term way. But even if that is the case, that only means one is simply more susceptible to depression (as are all people who've suffered long-term anxiety problems), it doesn't mean they will get depressed again.
True, when your depressed, the world does seem like "an alien planet", like everything "normal" in your life has just "vanished", almost like it never even existed. You lose all "attachment" to everything that you used to like/enjoy/love. It even feels you've lost yourself. So all that's left is a stripped-down-bare reality, consisting only of the misery that is depression.
I tell you mate, i've been EXACTLY where you are now. You're at absolute rock bottom, as far as a human can go. The only way is UP (i don't recomend "sideways"!!!)
I've written HEAPS of stuff over the years, during all the times i was depressed. There's actually a LOT of aspects concerning it, which you will not currently have thought about (you'd be surprised). And that is another thing that you will benefit from doing: Record your thoughts (ie diary or journal). I very strongly suggest you do this!!!
Also, I feel propelled to suggest that you seek professional help, not only for the acute depression you are currently in, but also for the BDD, and maybe some other things as well. It might be just what you need?. Of course there's no guarantees (therapy never helped me - but regularly phoning a depression hotline, recording my thoughts, trying to analyse my thoughts/feelings, trying to keep doing things to take my mind off negative thoughts - well all those years doing that seems to have beaten the depression for good!!! (now its like i have this "pain-limiting" mechanism in place which stops the depression from becoming severe, and maybe helps the minor depression to go away more readily)
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Beatrice
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Store?? You own a store? What kind of store?
coyote
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Beatrice
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Thank you, I appreciate you responding to my post : ) (especially since it was so long...)
I keep meaning to keep a journal. Actually, I have the best intentions to begin and regularly manage a LOT of things, like a blog, keeping my room organized, my fitness diary, etc. I just never have time! :/ But since my classes are almost over, I should have plenty of time to do all that this summer.
I am currently on meds and I'm seeing a therapist, but she's more of a talk therapist than anything else.... she hasn't provided me with anything really useful I can employ in my day-to-day life to combat my problems. And she apparently has no clue how to handle BDD. I need to find a specialist.
Again, thanks for your post
I wasn't expecting anyone to respond, I was just venting, but it always feels nice when someone takes the time to respond to you. It feels like someone cares and thinks you're worth seeking help.
Deus_Ex_Lemur
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Thank you, I appreciate you responding to my post : ) (especially since it was so long...)
I keep meaning to keep a journal. Actually, I have the best intentions to begin and regularly manage a LOT of things, like a blog, keeping my room organized, my fitness diary, etc. I just never have time! :/ But since my classes are almost over, I should have plenty of time to do all that this summer.
I am currently on meds and I'm seeing a therapist, but she's more of a talk therapist than anything else.... she hasn't provided me with anything really useful I can employ in my day-to-day life to combat my problems. And she apparently has no clue how to handle BDD. I need to find a specialist.
Again, thanks for your post
We're all worth seeking help for and caring for. I know you'll use the summer to do these things. It'll be easy to get washed away by floods of these bad feelings but you can go up. Up up and awayyyyy to brighter thingers.
Deus_Ex_Lemur
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AS FOR MOI -
Thanks Super! At least someone cared about me =( no lol jk.
I feel better. I wont go into what happened I hate complaining but I just fubar'd a huge thing at school. Socially and for my own mental sanity.
But... I have stuff to do today and help a shoot tomorrow at school and blah a paper by Monday LAST PAPER EVER!!!!!!!!!!
I still feel a bit depressed about it BUT won't let it define my last week - I'm not going to waste more time wallowing. Makes my fur feel icky. What happened happened, it'll be haunting for a little while the future has far more chances than I realize to take shots and do things. Time to move on...
Thanks Super! At least someone cared about me =( no lol jk.
I feel better. I wont go into what happened I hate complaining but I just fubar'd a huge thing at school. Socially and for my own mental sanity.
But... I have stuff to do today and help a shoot tomorrow at school and blah a paper by Monday LAST PAPER EVER!!!!!!!!!!
I still feel a bit depressed about it BUT won't let it define my last week - I'm not going to waste more time wallowing. Makes my fur feel icky. What happened happened, it'll be haunting for a little while the future has far more chances than I realize to take shots and do things. Time to move on...
Deus_Ex_Lemur
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i think platitudes are cool
That's a platypussy not a platitude!
Only a platypus can have a plattitude.
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Beatrice
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Thanks fuzzball
I'm sorry I didn't respond to your post D:
Like Super said, I'm not sure what happened because you didn't say, but I think I get the idea and I've done the same sorts of things. At least, had the same sorts of feelings about my mistake. Lately I've gotten better at letting embarrassing situations go.... but I'm not sure if yours was embarrassing or not. But anyway, that's me, not you, so... what am I rambling about. Hah.
So, yeah, what asian_friend said......
(wish I had something better to say, sorry :/ I'm terrible with advice but I try)
Deus_Ex_Lemur
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Thanks fuzzball
I'm sorry I didn't respond to your post D:
Like Super said, I'm not sure what happened because you didn't say, but I think I get the idea and I've done the same sorts of things. At least, had the same sorts of feelings about my mistake. Lately I've gotten better at letting embarrassing situations go.... but I'm not sure if yours was embarrassing or not. But anyway, that's me, not you, so... what am I rambling about. Hah.
So, yeah, what asian_friend said......
(wish I had something better to say, sorry :/ I'm terrible with advice but I try)
Thanks riceball! Oh yeah I was being cryptic so kinda hard to respond. I'll write about it in my journal. I guess Ive made a bit of progress esp mentally and thus in action - and just totally went 180 slipped the other day. Not embarrassing really just disappointing in self. BUT ANYWAYS appreciate the advice, ricehopper, it WAS helpful given my not explaining the details of what happened. You shall become very wise. =)
CosmicNeurotica
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unhappy, sad.. and unwanted, unlove, and a nobody..
i have no friends, no one likes me.. or wants to talk to me..
im a sad loser
I feel this right now too, and what's worse is my heart really hurts too.
It's so hard to get over the feeling of a broken heart with no one to talk to. Just doing some push ups and playing guitar ha.
Isn't helping much so far, but just trying to stay strong. It's about all I can do.
Btw, message me if you want. I'll talk to you.
That goes for anyone.
Much love