When i first posted in this thread here today i was feeling "bored to f**k*ng b*ggery" - thats why i came on here today. Didn't think that it would make much diffrence, but it has taken my mind a bit off the beyond-bored boredom i have been experiencing every day lately. Is only a quick-fix, but better than a no-fix.
These past several days i have been "feeling overwhelmed with feeling underwhelmed" (ie too much lacking stimualtion, another words "crazy boredom"). Can't leave my house. Can't leave pc. Can't allow myself to do anything different (which could "cheer me up"). And so i am stuck in my misery, day in day out. Violence to my soul (& senses). 'F*cked, but aaah well, never mind' is my current catch-phrase which i voice often (signifies that i am feling completely hopeless about feeling better - have given up)
Usually i can handle it, but is only just handling the symptoms - eg by nibbling on junk food (my cheese), constantly busy on pc (my treadmill; never being idle for a momnet so as not to "feel"). Thats really all i can do about my situation & problems, just constantly comfort myself .... aah well, never mind...