How are you feeling?

Danfalc

Danfalc

Banned
Feel slightly annoyed I haven't really done anything constructive today and I have found myself checking back at this site.Not a habit I wan't to get back into but I've managed to keep it down to 5 minutes or less when I do log in.

A little frustrated also as my sleep is still causing me problems,but I'm excited for the week to start so I can start being active again.It's weird how I'm finding it more and more frustrating to be stuck in where I use to find any excuse not to go out a while back.It's still not easy and I still find it hard being out but I refuse to give up or stop trying because it get's hard.Some thing's are getting easier too so I am making progress.:)
 
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sevenroses

Well-known member
I just feel a bit depressed at the moment. I'm completely healthy and I have a roof over my head but I just feel so empty, isolated and alone. I stress out too much and it's just taking it's toll on me. I hate being negative all the time and I have a hard time appreciating life even though I should appreciate little things. I unno.::(:
 
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Feathers

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I threw up - not sure if it's just jitters or am I sick like sis??
Sis has been ill for a few days.. grr!! and I'm supposed to have a meeting tomorrow.. (might just be the nerves mind you... gah!!)

don't feel very healthy right now though, ugh...
 
EscapeArtist

EscapeArtist

Well-known member
feeling like I want to break into heavy heavy tears but I'm too afraid somebody will walk in, so I'll wait for the night.. That old loneliness, and the craving for a respected/comforting parent. I shouldn't care anymore, I'm 17. But I guess not having any friends to fall back on doesn't help
 
Forgotten-Children

Forgotten-Children

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I can't pin point the exact emotion that I'm feeling at the moment. I jut know, I'm radiating negitive energy and, honestly, want to start breaking things if I had something worth breaking that I didn't have to replace...

I know I feel angry at myself because I feel horible for making my boyfriend look bad towards my family because I can't f*cking get my words right whenever I try and say something about him to them. My mom thinks he's my Bible pretty much, and everyone thinks that he's a dictator towards me because I say that I'm afraid to do things because I don't want to make him angry, but most, if not all of the things he tells me to do revolve around being responsible.

James told me to write something to help me remind myself so that I wouldn't be doing responsible things only for him.

I even wrote on my hand saying "Make your own opinion"

But I know this should all be a positive thing to talk about. I KNOW I have to be responsible, but yet, after that conversation, I feel completely negative about it and don't know why...

Pfft... Today, I might actually take my meds which is the first time in a while because I need this to go away fast because I have work today... Not that it'll pobably help at all, but I SUPPOSE it's worth a shot...

Sorry about all this,I just need to vent... whatever needs to be vented, because I CAN'T bing this to work. Not only will it offend to customers but I just know my manager will just come up and ask "Are you OK?" and I'll just burst into tears because that always happens whenever someone asks that.
 
Square_Eyes

Square_Eyes

Well-known member
Well, after a whole day of moping around in bed feeling nothing but hatred towards myself, my mood has finally started on an upwards trajectory. And I only have one person to thank for that.
 
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Kato

Well-known member
I am thinking of going to town and my heart has started beating faster and will not stop. I must be in an avoidance state of mind and have triggered my fight/flight/or freeze response. and I am anticipating a lot uncomfortableness. I am going anyway. My mind is just running wild with the wrong feelings.



If I don't reappear within a few days, don't call the police, call a doctor. The last time the police were called to this address I had been drinking. Then, a police officer beat me with a night stick from my shoulders down to my calves and then then he maced me. All I was doing was being belligerent towards them and then resist being arrested. At least one of them got mace on their face also. Of course, it was the nice cop. Then the court charged me with assault and resisting arrest.
 
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userremoved

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Humiliated...I like to think of myself as a nice guy, but I just acted like a complete douche bag to some people that didn't really deserve it. All because of my own insecurities. Said a lot of things I can't take back. I wish I didn't have to come back here again, I can't show my face anymore. :(
 
DanFC

DanFC

Well-known member
Miserable and cowardly. I was too scared to make a move on someone who was obviously interested in me, and it seems she's moved on. There are moments when I truly hate myself.
 
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sevenroses

Well-known member
I just feel a tiny bit stressed. Not too stressed compared to yesterday when I just found out that I have to attend a mandatory NVCI class with all coworkers (even ones I never met before) and it kind of worries me because I haven't taken it before and I don't know what to expect and whether we have to be the center of attention at any point during the class. Having to take that class is kind of like a curve ball that came out of nowhere that caught me off guard. I also have to adjust to new coworkers and so far it seems awkward with no real good rapport with any of them. I guess that why I'm a tiny bit stressed as of late going through all these changes at work. I hate when there too much change.
 
Danfalc

Danfalc

Banned
jneal25 said:
Humiliated...I like to think of myself as a nice guy, but I just acted like a complete douche bag to some people that didn't really deserve it. All because of my own insecurities. Said a lot of things I can't take back. I wish I didn't have to come back here again, I can't show my face anymore. :(
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Your only human dude,we all make mistakes.We can all be less than nice people under enough stress or the wrong circumstances.

*I'm feeling warm tired and cozy,but I know as soon as my head hit's the pillow my mind will start racing,I wouldn't mind but i have to be up at like 6/7 tomorrow bleh.Still feeling okay though,had a few people comment that I'm looking healthier and am putting weight on again.I'm hardly Mr Sunshine but thing's are looking a lot less bleak.
 
BlackPuma

BlackPuma

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Still not feeling good. I announced to my regular contacts that I'd be offline on all instant messengers for a while.

Had a call for that job today. I have an appointment there at 2PM this Wednesday. The appointment is a formality for the most part as the job is exclusively available for people with mental health problems and phobia's. I guess I'll learn more about it when I get there.
 
vj288

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
blackpuma said:
Still not feeling good. I announced to my regular contacts that I'd be offline on all instant messengers for a while.

Had a call for that job today. I have an appointment there at 2PM this Wednesday. The appointment is a formality for the most part as the job is exclusively available for people with mental health problems and phobia's. I guess I'll learn more about it when I get there.
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:eek: That's not including SPW, is it?!?
 
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