you know what i walked around today , there was a Carnival on , you know hundreds of people, loads of trucks pulling diff Carnival stuff ,full of people waving cheering ect the music was loud , all i could see was people with there kids , people with there partners , my kids live 220 miles away, my gfs in ireland , felt quite lonely today :

: ..... i know most of you feel the same way all the time , but im 46 now iv sort of worked my way through sa , just thought hmmm glad there all happy

nice to see people enjoying them selves with there family and stuff , i just went weight training got fed up now im drinking beer , rang my gf just for someone to talk to , couldnt get hold of my kids , there mobile is switched off ... my gf just said gary

the sooner your over here the better , your just wandering around and you dont know what to do with your self half the time do you , guess shes right ......