How are you feeling?

I am scared and anxious. About to go to cross country running and face my anxiety which has been very severe the last week.

I fear being called names as a result of a misundersting of my anxiety today, as I am sure happened two weeks ago and absolutely destroyed me for a whole week. It would be so easy not to go to CC again, but I don't want my anxiety to win and diminish my life anymore.

I placed a post on my blog saying what I suffer from, a few people from running have read this, and have said they understand and will support me.

If no one believes me then, or if people look at me like I am a weirdo, then I will have to give CC away. At the finish line I need to face the two people that really devastated me by their actions 2 weeks ago.

I'm not sure I can talk to these people or trust them ever again.

Just concentrate on the running itself. Get into the thrill of the thing and let the adrenaline from anxiety become part of running itself.... Hey... you can do cross-country, something not many people can do. You should take some confidence in this.

And since at least some of the other runners are supporting you, just concentrate on them more instead of the ones whom you don't really like.
 

Steve23

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I feel really good! I just came back from a meetup group of about 20 people where I knew virtually nobody. It went considerably better than I imagined things would turn out and met a lot of new acquaintances. Starting to have a bit of hope for managing my anxiety :).
 

lyricalliaisons

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I'm feeling anxious about the essays I still have to write. I have to turn them in Monday & it's 6:05 Sunday morning now. I've barely written any of it because I've been so unmotivated & I can't figure out what to write. I have to write three separate essays on three separate questions. I haven't even slept yet, so by the time I fall asleep & wake up, I won't have a whole lot of time to do all of them.

I'm also really scared because it's an online class & the professor was letting people mail in assignments but because it's taken me so long, I'm going to have to take it down in person. The bus only goes to the school once every two hours which means I'll be trapped there for two hours while waiting for the bus. I can use one of the computers in the library to make the time go by quicker, but it's still going to be very hard & I don't want to do it. I wish it wasn't so hard for me to get motivated & to make myself do stuff so much of the time.
 
Frankly, I'm happier then I've been in a LONG time.

My brother (a rude, dominant, manipulative, coward who gets his thrill from tormenting this entire family mentally because of his own short comings (and whom is the biggest obstacle for my mental recovery)) is out of the house for approximately 2 weeks.

I can finally get out of my room for long periods of time during the day. For the first time in years, in fact. :')

He drops in in the morning and evening to leach money from my mother, and it's just for 2 weeks then he'll be right back in again. But until then I'm going to live this like a vacation.

I'm already feeling a load better (also SA wise) even though he's only been gone for a day.
 
I'm feeling anxious about the essays I still have to write. I have to turn them in Monday & it's 6:05 Sunday morning now. I've barely written any of it because I've been so unmotivated & I can't figure out what to write. I have to write three separate essays on three separate questions. I haven't even slept yet, so by the time I fall asleep & wake up, I won't have a whole lot of time to do all of them.

I'm also really scared because it's an online class & the professor was letting people mail in assignments but because it's taken me so long, I'm going to have to take it down in person. The bus only goes to the school once every two hours which means I'll be trapped there for two hours while waiting for the bus. I can use one of the computers in the library to make the time go by quicker, but it's still going to be very hard & I don't want to do it. I wish it wasn't so hard for me to get motivated & to make myself do stuff so much of the time.

Maybe you can post some of the questions online here in this forum. I've always thought that we should have a homework forum or at least a thread where you can post questions and get feedback by PM (or otherwise). We've programmers, engineers, PHDs, poets, artists... and who knows what else here.... maybe there'll be someone with the knowledge to give some ideas or help.
 

Danfalc

Banned
A bit frustrated with myself.I have let my sleep pattern slip recently and have gotten into a right funk with it.Been feeling kinda low too and my anxiety has been flaring up,I have this self defense thing where I can be getting on with someone and my anxiety bugs out,I worry I'm being too clingy and I end up pushing friends away.

Though I have been migraine free with cutting down on the sugar in my diet which is a blessing.Got my therapist coming this week so I can maybe bring up this avoid-ant behavior/defense mechanism.
 
>:[

My mom came in 20 minutes ago telling me I should make decisions faster about things that benefit me regarding social improvement.

God forbid they should appreciate that I arranged a meeting with a local hotel, worked a shift with the cleanup crew there last Tuesday to try it out, and am now pondering of going there on a daily bases. But no. Speed, that's what they're worried about. Really..

I'm so
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ing tired of people pushing me around like this when I'm SO close to turning my life around. Unbelievable.
 
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Miami

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pissed, frustrated, down, unmotivated, tired, etc........................................................ at least i can still listen to music to take my mind off of things
 

mrb

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had a good day with my kids , went to see toy story , then took them to a pub for dinner , then on our way to the beach my 16 year old daughter said stop the car dad i want to look in that clothes shop :) ok i said ... then she saw a dress expensive but she really wanted it so i brought it , but then course she needed new shoes to match the dress :rolleyes: then a handbag to match them again expensive , so i brought that ....... oh then the other 2 kids started OI DAD THATS NOT FAIR :mad: so they chose dresses shoes .... im sure there was smoke coming out of the credit card machine by the time they had finished kids eh , dont you just love kids :rolleyes:
 

mrb

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Sounds to me like you're loaded. Marry me? I sure could use some new expensive dresses, shoes and handbags. ;)

It's nice to hear you had a good day with your family.

i was loaded b4 i went into that shop lolzzz ::p: and marring you hmmm ill think about it :confused::D post edit ... oh go on then you twisted my arm 2 gun...
 
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coyote

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had a good day with my kids , went to see toy story , then took them to a pub for dinner , then on our way to the beach my 16 year old daughter said stop the car dad i want to look in that clothes shop :) ok i said ... then she saw a dress expensive but she really wanted it so i brought it , but then course she needed new shoes to match the dress :rolleyes: then a handbag to match them again expensive , so i brought that ....... oh then the other 2 kids started OI DAD THATS NOT FAIR :mad: so they chose dresses shoes .... im sure there was smoke coming out of the credit card machine by the time they had finished kids eh , dont you just love kids :rolleyes:


Feel free to bring your daughter shopping at my store anytime.
 

Uber Schnitzel

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Sounds to me like you're loaded. Marry me? I sure could use some new expensive dresses, shoes and handbags. ;)

It's nice to hear you had a good day with your family.

Haha - Sounds more like he was loaded. Love your Av by the way - laughed my a$$ off when I realised what it meant (it's a slow day - well it is Sunday after all) ::p:
 

mrb

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Feel free to bring your daughter shopping at my store anytime.

fine no worries as long as you dont mind them chucking all the stuff they have got off the rails and tried them on and thrown them on the floor ..... they did the shop keepers head in , and mine :confused: dad dad what about this ... yea thats nice buy it :) hmmm naa dad ill try this on instead :mad: it went on for over an hour and half ::eek:: god was i glad to get out of there .....
 
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