sevenroses
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Quite nervous about a staff meeting I have to attend tomorrow 
Wish me luck.
Wish me luck.
How are you feeling?
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Quite nervous about a staff meeting I have to attend tomorrow
Good luck!!
I hope it goes well for you sevenroses.
petrified eyes
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I feel invisible. At times that's a good thing, while crossing the street is not one of those times.
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sevenroses
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Thanks I might need some luck ::
I might need some luck ::
Quite nervous about a staff meeting I have to attend tomorrow
^They go fine. Especially if you don't have to say anything and just listen.
I actually went to one this one time where you actually had to introduce yourself (in front of everyone
) to the owners. As you know, it went horribly for me (I stuttered, my voice cracked, I sweated and turned red.) Still, every single one of my co-workers after still talked to me the same... guess they just assumed that I'm afraid of public speaking (who isn't? )sevenroses
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Everytime there are new employees we have to introduce ourselves in a circle. I hate that I don`t even know what to say.
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awkwardamanda
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Bored as hell and just got a case of the blahs today...meh::
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petrified eyes
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I'm angry and sad right now. That "Would You Forgive Bullies?" thread brought back a lot of bad memories.
**** you, my middle and high school bullies, **** you.
I have a hard time falling asleep because of you.
I still wake up at night because of you.
I haven't been in a classroom since 2004 because of you.
I'm terrified of people because of you.
I went on the psych ward because of you.
I constantly look over my shoulder because of you.
I get flashbacks every time I see a school bus because of you.
I don't trust anyone because of you.
You made me hate school.
You made me hate living.
You made me hate myself.
**** you.
(Sorry for the rant guys, I just needed to say that.:
**** you, my middle and high school bullies, **** you.
I have a hard time falling asleep because of you.
I still wake up at night because of you.
I haven't been in a classroom since 2004 because of you.
I'm terrified of people because of you.
I went on the psych ward because of you.
I constantly look over my shoulder because of you.
I get flashbacks every time I see a school bus because of you.
I don't trust anyone because of you.
You made me hate school.
You made me hate living.
You made me hate myself.
**** you.
(Sorry for the rant guys, I just needed to say that.:
fitftw
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^ what you have to do is realize the past is past. Stop regretting your life and make it something better. Who knows, maybe some of your bullies are actually DEAD. I know a few of mine from middle school are dead now.
Karma. So relax. Make your life better. Nobody bullies people anymore once you're in college usually.
Karma. So relax. Make your life better. Nobody bullies people anymore once you're in college usually.
awkwardamanda
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But the damage is done by then.
fitftw
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yeah but bullies have their own problems to deal with. You can't really hold grudges because you don't know what they might have gone through. Rape...domestic abuse...etc bullies aren't just bullies for the hell of it. I'd rather have SA now than have been a bully when I was younger.
reslo
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i hate my job i hate my job ihate my job i hate my job- i hate leaving the house, i hate when people look at me, i hate being awkward every stupid day of my life, i hate the way i talk to people, i hate myslef for not amounting to more in life, i hate feeling constantly afraid,
i feel like i relly embarrassed myself the last time i was at work- so im feeling lingering shame for my dumbness from 2 days ago-
and i'm also feeling like spw is like a bad habit that i think im done with but i keep getting pulled back in
i hate my presence i hate my being i can't stand the way i am
if there was any way i could be someone else, i would
i can't do anything right
i am completey pathetic and dumb dumb dumb.... i am selfish for wanting anything in life for I don't deserve it. i just can't stand myself right now.
i am feeling like i constantly isolate myself frrom others- which i do purposefully because i don't think that there is any reason anyone should be my friend.
i am more pathetic and more worthless than i will ever realize. and i really hate my job. i do hate it,
i try to make myself happy with shallow things
i have a short attention span- so even when i hate things, i'll be thinking of something else completely random a few minutes later- like how when the hot guy at work that's needless to say lightyears out of my league- was talking to me, was like "back to hell" meaning back to work- it makes me feel closer to him.
(not that spw is bad, i just can't seem to get away from it for more than 6 months)
i feel like i relly embarrassed myself the last time i was at work- so im feeling lingering shame for my dumbness from 2 days ago-
and i'm also feeling like spw is like a bad habit that i think im done with but i keep getting pulled back in
i hate my presence i hate my being i can't stand the way i am
if there was any way i could be someone else, i would
i can't do anything right
i am completey pathetic and dumb dumb dumb.... i am selfish for wanting anything in life for I don't deserve it. i just can't stand myself right now.
i am feeling like i constantly isolate myself frrom others- which i do purposefully because i don't think that there is any reason anyone should be my friend.
i am more pathetic and more worthless than i will ever realize. and i really hate my job. i do hate it,
i try to make myself happy with shallow things
i have a short attention span- so even when i hate things, i'll be thinking of something else completely random a few minutes later- like how when the hot guy at work that's needless to say lightyears out of my league- was talking to me, was like "back to hell" meaning back to work- it makes me feel closer to him.
(not that spw is bad, i just can't seem to get away from it for more than 6 months)
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fitftw
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^ lol go talk to that hot guy
Don't hate so much. It's not good for your well-being. Be you and be happy you're you and not someone else. Find the things you have a knack for. Experiment with new ways of having fun by yourself.
Appreciate not having to talk to someone! It makes you want someone with you less and less. Until it wouldn't matter anymore if you never talk to anyone ever again in life.
Don't hate so much. It's not good for your well-being. Be you and be happy you're you and not someone else. Find the things you have a knack for. Experiment with new ways of having fun by yourself.
Appreciate not having to talk to someone! It makes you want someone with you less and less. Until it wouldn't matter anymore if you never talk to anyone ever again in life.
sevenroses
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Rish
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Aww hope you don`t make the same mistake I did.
And what's that?
sevenroses
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Quit nursing because of SA well I also did terrible in practicum cause of the clinical instructors were a little too anal
Rish
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Quit nursing because of SA well I also did terrible in practicum cause of the clinical instructors were a little too anal
Lol yeah i have an anal instructor now. Whos very judegmental and quick with labels. Have never been more depressed in my life until this semester. Well thats probably not true but feels like it. I dont want to quit though but if its making me fantasize about death this often i might need rethink this.. lol