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Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Detached. Isolated. Alone. Frustrated. ::(: :mad:

Constantly feelin' I must conform to someone else ideals to be liked. Well, ye know what I say tae that...? F#%k being likeable! I couldn't give a toss. I'm sick of being telt what I should or shouldn't like - or assumed to like something when I don't (be it music, movies, a TV show or books etc.) - but then it seems those around me (family) know me better than I know maself that they project their cultural tastes onto me. As though, we're all the same. And I am really fed up with being taken advantage of by certain family members, only nice tae me when they want something, cannae take "No" for an answer; haven't been told to get tae f#%k that often in their life. Must agree because to say otherwise would "go against ma charming, good natured personality", he says with heavy sarcasm. And... to be brutally honest here, I'm starting to feel about as degraded as f#%kin' pornstar in a f#%kin' bukkake video. (Sorry for any offense caused by that explicit reference. It appears that ma twisted sense of humour is still in tacked! I don't even know if that's a good or bad thing...?) :confused:

But then that's me, innit...? A kind heart, big bastard, too nice tae speak for himself, say something and actually mean it, because am never taken seriously. Everything I say seems to treated like a punchline tae a joke with a missing premise; the joke no-one "gets".

Sorry for the rant, just need tae get this internal dialogue outta ma system
 
EscapeArtist

EscapeArtist

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MikeyC said:
Ahhh, not so good tonight. ::(: Why must I fall back into old habits? No willpower.
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aww mikey it's okay. you do well for the most part, little back steps are to be expected, or even welcomed, when one is improving. The faster you move forward the more possibility you'll move backwards quickly, so any little backstep that impedes your progress, also impedes the possibility of future reversals. It only improves the permant-ness of it all. You can PM whenever you like
 
MikeyC

MikeyC

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EscapeArtist said:
aww mikey it's okay. you do well for the most part, little back steps are to be expected, or even welcomed, when one is improving. The faster you move forward the more possibility you'll move backwards quickly, so any little backstep that impedes your progress, also impedes the possibility of future reversals. It only improves the permant-ness of it all. You can PM whenever you like
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Thank you, Escape. It's just my healthy eating. If I get even a little bit off-balance mentally, I can't control the cravings, like what I did tonight. I need more willpower and a different approach to dealing with it. I've lost nearly 10kg and I don't want to put all that back on because I can't sort out my head.

I just need to keep trying, but I find it really difficult.
 
twiggle

twiggle

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MikeyC said:
Thank you, Escape. It's just my healthy eating. If I get even a little bit off-balance mentally, I can't control the cravings, like what I did tonight. I need more willpower and a different approach to dealing with it. I've lost nearly 10kg and I don't want to put all that back on because I can't sort out my head.

I just need to keep trying, but I find it really difficult.
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You're doing so well Mikey.
It's inevitable that you will take the occasional back-step because something like this is hard, but at least you can recognise the bad habit and know that it's something you can't do too often.
Don't be so hard on yourself for giving in to the cravings - when we go a bit off-balance, it's only fair that we let ourselves off a little bit with some comfort food. As long as you don't make too frequent a habit of it that's all that matters.
 
MikeyC

MikeyC

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twiggle said:
You're doing so well Mikey.
It's inevitable that you will take the occasional back-step because something like this is hard, but at least you can recognise the bad habit and know that it's something you can't do too often.
Don't be so hard on yourself for giving in to the cravings - when we go a bit off-balance, it's only fair that we let ourselves off a little bit with some comfort food. As long as you don't make too frequent a habit of it that's all that matters.
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I highlighted that last sentence because that's usually my downfall.

I know I'm doing well but I just have to fully recognise how well I'm doing. I don't want to put the weight I've lost back on simply because I'm upset. Historically, food has been a comfort for me when everything else sucked so I've got to break a habit that's been ingrained for years.

Thanks for your kind reply, twiggle. :)
 
JuiceB

JuiceB

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I woke up a kinda depressed this morning. I'm suppose to be on vacation this week, but I guess it's not a vacation if you stay home all week. I'm so out-of-touch with the world around me.

Also this - I really want to respond to everyone's post in a positive way when they're feeling down because I think a little pick-me-up might help them feel better. But what happens instead is my own negative thoughts get in the way (don't ask), so I post nothing. Is it just cynicism or what?
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Wondering whether it's ever a good idea to voice your opinion knowing your likely to really hurt someone's feeling?
 
truffleshuffle

truffleshuffle

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Graeme1988 said:
Yeah, but what they don't want to hear it? The truth hurts, as the sayin' goes.
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Most people don;t but need to anyway. but I understand your delima. I would be stressing. It just depends If its something that needs to be said or something you just want to say. its a hard choice just do it kindly and hope for the best.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Well, that it. I give up, I really do. It's seems that my opinion doesn't matter a jot. Who cares what I have to say, anymore? Eh?! F**k being honest, and tae f**k with family whilist yer at it. As long as you keep the peace - which, to me, is code for: SHUT THE FU#% UP! - you will go unnoticed. I guess it's for the best.

Wouldn't want tae upset or offend anyone by just being honest, and expressing ma personal opinion. Not me, no sir.

But then, see when ye get right doon tae the bottom line, naebody gives a f**k nowadays - of course, there are some expections to that. But those a very few and far between, it seems.

Nonsensical rant over!
 
truffleshuffle

truffleshuffle

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Graeme1988 said:
Well, that it. I give up, I really do. It's seems that my opinion doesn't matter a jot. Who cares what I have to say, anymore? Eh?! F**k being honest, and tae f**k with family whilist yer at it. As long as you keep the peace - which, to me, is code for: SHUT THE FU#% UP! - you will go unnoticed. I guess it's for the best.

Wouldn't want tae upset or offend anyone by just being honest, and expressing ma personal opinion. Not me, no sir.

But then, see when ye get right doon tae the bottom line, naebody gives a f**k nowadays - of course, there are some expections to that. But those a very few and far between, it seems.

Nonsensical rant over!
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I take it it didn;t go well
 
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