How are you feeling?

MikeyC

MikeyC

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Beatrice said:
I am feeling pretty terrible. I want to save the world from all the horror and despair. I want to give the good-hearted less fortunate a chance at happiness. Good people with anxiety issues or who are considered unattractive or have a deformity or disability or have made poor choices and are sincerely regretful.

I guess before this year I never fully appreciated how very harsh and cold the reality of human life can be. Not that it is for everyone. But many suffer horrendously, and some are even mocked for it.

I'm sorry, I'm only filling this thread with negativity again. This is the last one of these types of post I'll write for a while, I promise. I just feel overwhelmed with despair and confusion. I'm terrified. I don't even want to look in the mirror anymore. I feel worthless.

I don't know why I do this to myself.

Excuse my pessimism. I will be going now. I really just want a hug and to be told everything will be alright, but for some people it just... isn't. Not everything is always going to be alright.

How do you deal with that? How do you deal with the feeling that it only makes sense to off yourself, but you don't want to, and you feel tormented? Am I just really, really sick? Do I have any hope?

I'm going to regret posting this. Maybe I should stay off here for a while, I think I'm too depressed to be here. You guys don't need my crippling negativity. And yet I'm still posting this... makes sense.
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I don't know what to say.

*hug* Everything will be okay.

dottie said:
beleza, i wish i was more like you :)
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Me too. Except in male form.
 
MikeyC

MikeyC

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I want to scream. I got my pay slip in the mail and I haven't got paid for my Sunday shifts, plus I was paid a rostered day off which I didn't even take?

How can the airheads at front office get this so wrong? I work the EXACT same ****ing hours every single week and there's constantly errors of being underpaid. I don't understand it. Monkeys could coordinate this **** better.

On top of that, I'm having the worst possible dinner (meat pie and take-out fries). I offered to make spaghetti but my parents said no. I am livid about everything.
 
Lea

Lea

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Beatrice said:
I am feeling pretty terrible. I want to save the world from all the horror and despair. I want to give the good-hearted less fortunate a chance at happiness. Good people with anxiety issues or who are considered unattractive or have a deformity or disability or have made poor choices and are sincerely regretful.

I guess before this year I never fully appreciated how very harsh and cold the reality of human life can be. Not that it is for everyone. But many suffer horrendously, and some are even mocked for it.

I'm sorry, I'm only filling this thread with negativity again. This is the last one of these types of post I'll write for a while, I promise. I just feel overwhelmed with despair and confusion. I'm terrified. I don't even want to look in the mirror anymore. I feel worthless.

I don't know why I do this to myself.

Excuse my pessimism. I will be going now. I really just want a hug and to be told everything will be alright, but for some people it just... isn't. Not everything is always going to be alright.

How do you deal with that? How do you deal with the feeling that it only makes sense to off yourself, but you don't want to, and you feel tormented? Am I just really, really sick? Do I have any hope?

I'm going to regret posting this. Maybe I should stay off here for a while, I think I'm too depressed to be here. You guys don't need my crippling negativity. And yet I'm still posting this... makes sense.
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No this is not what I´d call negative. Negative people are toxic people, who are aggresive, dishonest and manipulative. I like your posts, as much as one can like something which is written by someone who is not feeling well, but I can relate to it certainly. I often think I´d like to save all creatures in the world from suffering, just to think of all that is overwhelming, but I have a hard time to manage even myself. Maybe if we didn´t feel like **** ourselves, we wouldn´t think too much about the suffering in the world, as strong and happy people don´t.
 
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Amitush123

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MikeyC said:
I want to scream. I got my pay slip in the mail and I haven't got paid for my Sunday shifts, plus I was paid a rostered day off which I didn't even take?

How can the airheads at front office get this so wrong? I work the EXACT same ****ing hours every single week and there's constantly errors of being underpaid. I don't understand it. Monkeys could coordinate this **** better.

On top of that, I'm having the worst possible dinner (meat pie and take-out fries). I offered to make spaghetti but my parents said no. I am livid about everything.
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Hang it there! our world is full of A - holes, that prefer to do their job as fast as possible, no matte how many mistakes they do. Ignore those people.
Meat pie? Yumm, does not sound so bad, although spaghetti is better...
 
knowledgeofself

knowledgeofself

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still nervous, been out to the doctors. it was really bad today was sweating and had difficulty even talking. I knew I would have problems before I went out the door because I had to really try and psyche myself up to go outside.just glad i'm home again.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Not too great, tae be honest, I've got a bit of a sored throat. Which is a bit disappointing... in that, I was hoping to post ma voice on here today. ::(:
 
Section_31

Section_31

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Raichel said:
I just found out one of my favourite musicians will be playing at the North Sea Jazz Club in Amsterdam on October 14th. Amsterdam's only a one hour train ride from where I live. I got pretty excited when I first read it, since the chances of them visiting such a small country as the Netherlands are quite low I suppose. ...Then I realized that

1. I've never been to the place before.
2. I'd have to go on my own since nobody I know is into jazz music, in fact, most of them genuinely dislike it.

I'll probably end up not going. I find going to unfamiliar places on my own terrifying. Besides, even if I manage to actually find the building and get inside, I wouldn't know how to behave, never been to this kind of small gig before. I'll be one of the youngest there, might get some strange looks too.

Hm, maybe I can try and find a recording on youtube afterwards.

...Then again, it'd be great fun to see them in person and experience the jazz feeling first hand.

Ugh... decisions...
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This jumped out at me, as i too am absolutely terrified of going to unknown places. The thought of ever setting foot outside of canada scares the crap out of me :(. I only live a few hours from the US border and ill never go there either.

Your not alone with this!
 
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Amitush123

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MikeyC said:
This is a problem I regularly have. Just go on your own - I do it and it's fine.


Yeah, same.

Still feeling crap. I have a lunch date today with a beautiful woman so I hope that makes me feel better.
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So today's the day, eh? hope you remembered to check the condoms' expire date :D
 
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