How are you feeling?

[MikeyC]

Thanks, I appreciate it.

All couples fight, of course, but when it's constant and very ugly it's just agonizing to listen to.

My parents weren't constant, but it was agonising. I feel your pain. :: Is there anywhere you can go? Just to get away?

 

[Opaline]

My parents weren't constant, but it was agonising. I feel your pain. :: Is there anywhere you can go? Just to get away?

No It's 4:30 in the morning. My stepdad will be leaving later today and my mother has to take the kids to school and everything. It won't go on too much longer.

 

[MikeyC]

No It's 4:30 in the morning. My stepdad will be leaving later today and my mother has to take the kids to school and everything. It won't go on too much longer.

And meanwhile you're still up and haven't slept. :: At least there'll be a reprieve, but I still feel for you because of my own history with my parents. Stay strong!

 

[Opaline]

And meanwhile you're still up and haven't slept. :: At least there'll be a reprieve, but I still feel for you because of my own history with my parents. Stay strong!

I just wish my mom would stop slamming the door, I think I've jumped about 5 times now :: I HATE when people slam things. I'm very jumpy.

 

[MikeyC]

I just wish my mom would stop slamming the door, I think I've jumped about 5 times now :: I HATE when people slam things. I'm very jumpy.

Yep, slamming doors. That doesn't help because you wonder if your door will be opened and slammed. I wish I could come over and save you from that hell.

 

[Amitush123]

Mixed emotions.
On the one hand, my diet is going well and I am about to break the 80 kg barrier.
On the other hand, it does not make my face any less ugly, and sometimes I wonder if it will be better to accept that fact and just enjoy good food..

 

[Starry]

Depressed... This year (well, the last 18 months really) have been filled with so much negativity and badness, not just on a personal level, but for quite a few different people I know too... Last night I was recounting all the bad things that have happened in the past year or so, and honestly, it's quite shocking. When I add on other people's suffering too, it becomes immense!

 

[MrJones]

Pretty good, excited even for my future and what can happen =D

 

[Opaline]

And now my stepdad is gone and my mother has thrown several of our kitchen chairs down the front stairs, all broken now. As if we can afford to buy new ones.

I made a huge mistake in coming home, but I had/have nowhere else to go.

My life is ridiculous. I need to get out of here.

 

[Srijita52]

Mixed emotions.
On the one hand, my diet is going well and I am about to break the 80 kg barrier.
On the other hand, it does not make my face any less ugly, and sometimes I wonder if it will be better to accept that fact and just enjoy good food..

Good work on the diet! I'm sure you're not ugly though.

Pretty good, excited even for my future and what can happen =D

Yay!

And now my stepdad is gone and my mother has thrown several of our kitchen chairs down the front stairs, all broken now. As if we can afford to buy new ones.

I made a huge mistake in coming home, but I had/have nowhere else to go.

My life is ridiculous. I need to get out of here.

I'm so sorry Beat, I wish I knew what to say. Stay strong.

Depressed... This year (well, the last 18 months really) have been filled with so much negativity and badness, not just on a personal level, but for quite a few different people I know too... Last night I was recounting all the bad things that have happened in the past year or so, and honestly, it's quite shocking. When I add on other people's suffering too, it becomes immense!

Yeah, I know the feeling. I feel the same when I think about all the negative things but I'm sure there must be some if not many positive things as well. I hope things get better for everyone.

 

[KiaKaha]

Way to go!

I do believe congratulations are in order. Well done!

Thanks guys

 

[KiaKaha]

I sometimes wonder - just how long ones resiliency can last. I surprise myself - at the never ending disappointment that life throws at me, yet for some reason, I seem to hold on.

I wonder - why is it that everyone else seems to be able to find the support, acceptance and care that they need, yet I continually seem to get left out. Years of doctors, psychologists and counsellors yet I dont see an improvement in my own quality of life. I have seen people get a lot more privilege for far less.
I am confused.... and....exhausted.

 

[Labyrinthine]

Worried. I don't quite know how to feel. Ever since it was obvious my dad wouldn't bother to look for a job and moved out to get medical help, I had been begging for my mom to look for one. She refused. Other than my dad's disability, I was the only one bringing money in. I gave up asking my mom to get one, so I got a second job (though there are also other reasons). I don't have my license yet because I was waiting to save enough money to go to driving school. My mom just got hired for a job today. She just called to tell me, though she never told me anything about it before. I guess I should be happy. Now I can save more money for college. But how am I going to get to work, 7 days a week? And to skating. Everything is 30 min away. Selfish thoughts I figure. I wonder what days and hours she will be working.

On a happy note, I felt my first attraction to anyone in a very long time. He was charming and I felt very comfortable talking to him. We didn't talk much because he was with his family and I was at work. Positively nothing will come of it and I will never see him again. However, it still felt great. I could tell he was interested. I was getting worried about the fact I hadn't felt any sort of pull towards anyone since my ex, and I was beginning to think I wouldn't. So silly as it is, this super tiny spark gives me some hope that I am still capable of being attracted towards others. ^.^

 

[Amitush123]

Worried. I don't quite know how to feel. Ever since it was obvious my dad wouldn't bother to look for a job and moved out to get medical help, I had been begging for my mom to look for one. She refused. Other than my dad's disability, I was the only one bringing money in. I gave up asking my mom to get one, so I got a second job (though there are also other reasons). I don't have my license yet because I was waiting to save enough money to go to driving school. My mom just got hired for a job today. She just called to tell me, though she never told me anything about it before. I guess I should be happy. Now I can save more money for college. But how am I going to get to work, 7 days a week? And to skating. Everything is 30 min away. Selfish thoughts I figure. I wonder what days and hours she will be working.

On a happy note, I felt my first attraction to anyone in a very long time. He was charming and I felt very comfortable talking to him. We didn't talk much because he was with his family and I was at work. Positively nothing will come of it and I will never see him again. However, it still felt great. I could tell he was interested. I was getting worried about the fact I hadn't felt any sort of pull towards anyone since my ex, and I was beginning to think I wouldn't. So silly as it is, this super tiny spark gives me some hope that I am still capable of being attracted towards others. ^.^

Sometimes even the faintest of sparks can start a raging fire..I hope you will find the one for you soon

 

[twiggle]

Somebody at work asked me a question today and the answer was kind of obvious. I gave the answer and then got the impression that she and a colleague were grinning at each other. I don't know... maybe they think that I think I'm a know-it-all for answering the question? I didn't answer in a patronising way...I didn't even think they were stupid for asking it... but because the answer made the question seem obvious maybe it looked that way.
I really love my job but felt quite unsettled today. I'm so paranoid all the time. I'm not one to gossip about people in the office and just like to get on with my work whilst staying friendly and making conversation with everyone but seems even that attitude isn't always welcomed.

I really hate office environments sometimes :-|

 

[Amitush123]

Somebody at work asked me a question today and the answer was kind of obvious. I gave the answer and then got the impression that she and a colleague were grinning at each other. I don't know... maybe they think that I think I'm a know-it-all for answering the question? I didn't answer in a patronising way...
I really love my job but felt quite unsettled today. I'm so paranoid all the time. I'm not one to gossip about people in the office and just like to get on with my work whilst staying friendly and making conversation with everyone but seems even that attitude isn't always welcomed.

I really hate office environments sometimes :-|

If you love your job do not let anyone change that...there is nothing wrong about knowing how to do your work properly..I, in fact, love to do my job the best way possible, without expecting a promotion or a raise...

 

[Opaline]

Bit shaky at the moment. My mother and stepdad's fight escalated to the physical level. My mother ended up pulling his hair and scratching his face until he bled, and so he grabbed her by the throat and pushed her against the wall.

Later on he came into the room where all of us kids were sitting and screamed at us and bashed his head against the wall several times, then punched it and was screaming like an insane person.

They're sleeping now (they were up all night arguing and drunk), but I'm sure they'll be at it again later. I'm really scared and there's nowhere for me to go.

 

[Amitush123]

Bit shaky at the moment. My mother and stepdad's fight escalated to the physical level. My mother ended up pulling his hair and scratching his face until he bled, and so he grabbed her by the throat and pushed her against the wall.

Later on he came into the room where all of us kids were sitting and screamed at us and bashed his head against the wall several times, then punched it and was screaming like an insane person.

They're sleeping now (they were up all night arguing and drunk), but I'm sure they'll be at it again later. I'm really scared and there's nowhere for me to go.

How old are you? have you tried telling someone at school?

 

[MikeyC]

I sometimes wonder - just how long ones resiliency can last. I surprise myself - at the never ending disappointment that life throws at me, yet for some reason, I seem to hold on.

You have no choice. You just keep on keeping on.

I really hate office environments sometimes :-|

I have never worked in an office, but I can imagine that if you're stuck with people you don't like in a room for hours on end 5 days a week, you're going to get on each other's nerves once in a while. I wouldn't think about it too much.

 

[Opaline]

How old are you? have you tried telling someone at school?

Well, technically I'm not a kid but I just lumped myself in with my siblings. I'm 21. My stepfather doesn't live here, they are separated. But he came to visit and this is what happened.