Have you ever considered or attempted suicide?

[Kiwong]

Never seriously considered it.

From about 32-40 year old, I didn't care about my life or living enough to care about myself.

Then I started to have some serious problems, such a panic attacks, in which I thought I was dieing, and they scared me so much, that I developed a strong will to live.

I started running over two year ago, and I now at 47, I want live more than ever.

 

[Jake123]

My most serious attempt was injecting myself with a lot of insulin. It lowers your blood sugar and enough can kill you. I passed out and went into a coma. Almost succeeded, but my body managed to recover from some stored glucose or something. I woke up a day later feeling like total crap, with the biggest headache ever. No one even noticed, my parents thought I was sleeping.

 

[I'm Not There]

I've actually considered doing it last friday night. My parents and sister were all out into town or something and I was home alone. I felt like nothing could ever "cure" me and really thought about leaving this world. Then again, I wouldn't ever do it because it would hurt my family too much.

 

[Ignace]

I thought of it, but I don't wanna hurt my parents. They do'nt deserve a dead son, nobody deserves that. Maybe I'll try when they're both dead and when I'm still the same old loser. Dying in a car accident is not my favourite way of dying, I prefer the coward way, injecting meds.

 

[da_illest101]

I though about it, but I know i'll never do it

 

[drumev]

I think about that occasionally, depressing and judgemental thoughts are overwhelming at times. But I don't really want it, I don't have the balls to talk to people, much less suicide...

 

[Inspiration]

I have thought about it numerous time. But, stopping short of actually doing it. WHY? Well, I think about it... How long can 1 individual live on this world? Average 70+. If unlucky, you'll die the next second. No one know what will happen the next second. Life is full of possibility. Death will surely knock on our door whether we like it or not. We don't have a choice. So, death is unpreventable. Why should we fasten the process? If life pissed on your face... You just have to get revenge. You have to be alive to do so thou. Even as i'm typing here... A plane could be falling right on my head any moment. Dang! There goes my life! I have this idealogy about life but... at the moment still stuck here. But, I'm still thinking of a plan to overcome my problems. Let say, I was given the chance to live forever... I would gladly decline. what makes life memorable and precious is because it have a time line. We'll only live once... make good use of it.

 

[lilymartens]

Yes, I've considered suicide, I consider it every day. I don't really care about what my family would feel, guess I'm just that selfish. The only one who's worth living for, is my cat. Sounds stupid, I know, but I feel like there's noone else who could love him and take care of him like I do.

 

[Carebear2010]

I've attempted it once, spent a few days in the hospital and got thrown in a mental insitution for a week. It was a nightmare and couldn't wait to get out there. I do believe in the heaven/hell thing so that's one thing that keeps me from doing it as much emotional pain I'm in along with health issues.

I also had a sister who committed suicide along with a cousin who did to so, I don't want to to give my parents anymore grief. I do think about dying everyday....I live it up now and do things that keep me busy that I like to do. o

 

[LadyWench]

I've definitely thought about it. Don't think I'll ever attempt it, though. I fail at everything, so I'm sure I would fail at that, as well. Not to mention the fact I'm a huge pansy when it comes to death. I think my thought process is more "I wish I didn't exist", rather than "I wish I could kill myself." Meh.

 

[panicsurvivor]

I think about it every day. Sometimes when I feel like my life is just waiting for the next panic attack, I just want shove my gun in my mouth and fire. The alternative is to attack others, and truly not give a **** anymore. Neither is acceptable to me, because of my children.
If it wasn't for my children I would already be dead.

 

[goldatom]

I've attempted it a dozen times and I always consider it as an option. But it's a risky option because it might leave you maimed. And most of all, even if you die, the pain preceding it has to be unbelievable (does painlessly dying in sleep even exist? I think it's wishy-washy thinking). It's nature's way of keeping you alive.

 

[EscapeArtist]

Scary results... more people have attempted suicide than those who haven't considered it.

 

[EasySkanking]

I think about it every day. Sometimes when I feel like my life is just waiting for the next panic attack, I just want shove my gun in my mouth and fire. The alternative is to attack others, and truly not give a **** anymore. Neither is acceptable to me, because of my children.
If it wasn't for my children I would already be dead.

Jesus man, that's so sad to hear. Like I've said soooo many times before, you seem to be a GREAT person... why go to such an extent?

You can get over those panic attacks dude... just keep trying, do it for your kids and for yourself too .

I myself have thought about it, but never really contemplated it. I truly have HOPE that someday my life will be better. I even got a tattoo of it on my arm about 2 weeks ago, just to remind me of it when times are hard... it works cause I realized that all I need is a reminder.... i know theres hope, except i used to forget it when I felt like ****.

 

[Anomaly]

I've considered it a number of times - I came very close.

For anyone in the same frame of mind, please remember:

It's a symptom - not a cure.

And yet I could give no reasonable meaning to any actions of my life. And I was surprised that I had not understood this from the very beginning. My state of mind was as if some wicked and stupid jest was being played upon me by someone. One can live only so long as one is intoxicated, drunk with life; but when one grows sober one cannot fail to see that it is all a stupid cheat. What is truest about it is that there is nothing even funny or silly in it; it is cruel and stupid, purely and simply.

-Leo Tolstoy

 

[IamThisOne]

Every hour of every day I think about it. I want to die. I hate living and I hate myself. I don't want to live with myself anymore. I get so jealous when I see a person my age in the obituary. That could be me, I could have that. The only thing that keeps me going is the fact that if I died, my family would have funeral expenses to pay. I can't wait for the day when I can get on my own and finally do it. I mean, all it takes is five minutes and all of this crap will be over. I'll never have to worry about social problems, money, driving, bills, food, or any of that other human bullsh!t.

 

[moni10]

I have in my phone the number of a guy who sells a kind of insecticid, although I know I'll never call him. Guess only the thought of calling him relaxes me, so I can focus better on my work. Then, when I have a panic attack and I can't concentrate anymore I reconsider this 'option'.It's a cycle that really pisses me off but helps me survive.

 

[be_noticed]

i have considered. sometimes it still is an option for me, depending on how my thoughts get affected. but i really wouldnt want to talk anymore about it on the internet to be honest :/ feel like im being watched.

 

[Carnation]

Yes I thought about it when I was 16 when I was being bullied and several times in my twenties. I go through phases when I think about it and what the best, most painless and least messy technique would be.

 

[SilentStranger]

Hmm thought about it lots of times. One time I almost tried, but I don't think I would have succeeded. It was one of those spur of the moment things.

I am too scared of fuc'n up and ending up as a vegetable!

Although sometimes I wonder weather ending my life would bring some peace to my family or sorrow. For the most part I think it would be unbearable to my parents. I couldn't do that to them & my sibling.

My attitude now towards suicide is probably summed up by Brian Griffin's line
"Sometimes it's all too much. Having the gun here, knowing there's a way out, it helps."