Have you ever considered or attempted suicide?
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Aussie_Lad
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A very long time ago. I wouldn't even dream of taking my life now.
I have thought about it hundreds of times, and still do think of it occasionally. But I know that its only cause of my circumstances.
I considered it when I was 16 and very miserable, and thought no one could ever love me, I'd never get any real friends, I'd never be loved, I'd never be happy...
... in less than 3 or 4 years, I got all that. So I'm lucky I didn't go through with it then - I might miss all this!!!
Please, anyone still considering - know awesome things can wait for you just around the corner... (Or at least some funny and inspiring and heartwarming or silly and wonderful things...)
... in less than 3 or 4 years, I got all that. So I'm lucky I didn't go through with it then - I might miss all this!!!
Please, anyone still considering - know awesome things can wait for you just around the corner... (Or at least some funny and inspiring and heartwarming or silly and wonderful things...)
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Noo!! Jake!! ((hugs))
PunkRotten, I really wonder about your circumstances.. You seem so upbeat and constructive on the forums-??
zav943
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Contemplated it a lot, sometimes several days on end. Almost did it....was driving down the highway at 180 km/hr (110+ mph) for a long stretch and I didn't care if the car flipped over...briefly drove into the oncoming lane. But then I slammed the brakes and tried to get my sh*t together.
I will never do it though. I believe I have something to offer to this world...I refuse to believe that my absence from this world would make it any better.
I will never do it though. I believe I have something to offer to this world...I refuse to believe that my absence from this world would make it any better.
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Felgen
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Considered it many times in my teens. Never seriously attempted, though...
Edit: zav943, I did the same thing with the car a couple of times while I was at my most depressed. In these moments, I was thinking that if I died, it was supposed to be that way; if I didn't, then it was supposed to be that way.
Edit: zav943, I did the same thing with the car a couple of times while I was at my most depressed. In these moments, I was thinking that if I died, it was supposed to be that way; if I didn't, then it was supposed to be that way.
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petrified eyes
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I've never tried or considered ending my life, but I've lost the will to live a few times. Does that make any sense?
I consider it every week. But I try to better myself instead of taking the easy way out. Big reason of that is because death also scares the ever so living crap out of me. Unless you believe in a hell/heaven, death is pretty much the end of the line. Death is irreversible, a crappy life is not in most cases. :3
I think about it every single day and have came very close to attempting it. I don't expect I'll ever go through with it, however. My biological instinct prevents me from voluntarily liberating myself from the indignity of being alive.
Luke1993
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I used to consider it every day. My plan was going to lie down on a train track, but I decided against it as I thought it wouldn't be very nice for the driver. So then I kept a stash of pills, but now I've disposed of them now I'm a bit more happy. I have occasional moments now where I think about doing it but eventually it passes.
zav943
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Yeah, no point in leaving a mess when you die...
You will also needlessly traumatize the train conductor.
Any method that involves splatter or clean-up after you die is disgusting.
Attempted....I don't don't recommend it, tried to take pills, spent three days in the hospital, couldn't control my body and had to have people change me like a baby:
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Most humiliating experience I've ever had
:Most humiliating experience I've ever had
lunaticbinge
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I think about it all the time. A few months ago I tried to drop a plugged in steam iron into the bathtub I was in but I just couldn't let it go. Come to think of it that was a really stupid way of going about it what with the possible brain damage.
jiujitsu
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I used to think about it every day several times a day. Lately, I don't think about it that much. Maybe every few days. It's just a flash of a thought. An easy end to whatever problem I'm focusing on at the moment. It mostly happens when I have a reality check. I can go along day to day just fine as long as I don't think about exactly what my life is missing. If I do I just can't think of a way to have what I really want and everything just loses it's worth in my eyes including my own life. I think, in those moments, that I should just end my life because it will never get better.
Freeflex
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I've attempted four times now, the first three weren't 'serious' (as in they never attracted any attention at all), but arguably my fourth attempt was very serious. The first time was when I was 15 in September 2008, it was actually the time I wanted to die the most funnily enough, I took 15 of these.. pills, which turned out not to be strong and had high dosages of caffeine in them, so I instead woke up one hour later and had the worst bout of insomnia and was up for two days! I then phased out of that mindset, but a few months later around April or May 2009, I tried to overdose on even more pills with alcohol.. again, nothing happened. I just got drunk. I found out after this that it takes 30+ pills to seriously overdose on many medications, so you could call those attempts very pathetic.
The third time, I tried to slit my wrist when I got home from school one day after being badly humiliated on the bus two weeks before we broke up for exam leave (so this was definitely in May), I was alone at home and in my uniform, and I grabbed a razor and tried to force myself to slit the damn veins/arteries open. However, as strange as it sounds coming from a self-harmer, it hurt a bit too much and I got a bit scared, so I just have a nasty scar there, now.
The 4th, and most recent time was just over a week ago when I wanted to hurl myself off a multistorey car park. But I lost my nerve and took too long, and the Police ended up detaining me, which I've wrote about in this Thread.
I'm put off overdosing now because I have a friend who epicly screwed his heart up after overdosing badly when his ex-girlfriend taunted him. He has to have an operation every 10 years for the rest of his life to fix it, and he has more physical difficulties. I think of more direct/blunt methods like falling to my death (hence the car park). I'm not suicidal now, and I'm trying to make a go of the chances I have, but I do admit I carry around the 'option' of committing suicide if things go wrong.
The third time, I tried to slit my wrist when I got home from school one day after being badly humiliated on the bus two weeks before we broke up for exam leave (so this was definitely in May), I was alone at home and in my uniform, and I grabbed a razor and tried to force myself to slit the damn veins/arteries open. However, as strange as it sounds coming from a self-harmer, it hurt a bit too much and I got a bit scared, so I just have a nasty scar there, now.
The 4th, and most recent time was just over a week ago when I wanted to hurl myself off a multistorey car park. But I lost my nerve and took too long, and the Police ended up detaining me, which I've wrote about in this Thread.
I'm put off overdosing now because I have a friend who epicly screwed his heart up after overdosing badly when his ex-girlfriend taunted him. He has to have an operation every 10 years for the rest of his life to fix it, and he has more physical difficulties. I think of more direct/blunt methods like falling to my death (hence the car park). I'm not suicidal now, and I'm trying to make a go of the chances I have, but I do admit I carry around the 'option' of committing suicide if things go wrong.
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