RandyMarsh
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When I was really young my mum died, my dad had a stroke and lost his speech, Ive never had any real friends, so yea I have felt alone my entire life.
Do you feel alone?
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Hamelech
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That's a pain in the neck, having friends that deep down don't care about you. I least I have one real friend who is almost like my brother for me.
Tiercel
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*orders a zarking real hug from a beautiful lady and has it delivered to Dent, along with a home cooked meal and some fine desserts*
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Beatrice
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Right now, a little bit. Sitting in one of the dining halls, kind of wishing someone was sitting here with me (no one specific, just SOME one).
It'll pass.
It'll pass.
Green7
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-lonestar-
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I feel SP people develop a sort of dislike for people because lets face it we feel as if people unfairly assume we are unfriendly due to how we avoid people, or they just seem to deny your existance and could never know what SP is or understand it because its a phobia, phobias are not based on much logic just a deep inner fear. Loniliness hits us hard but think about this: it does not mean you are totally better off than those with many friends people can be in a living hell with friends.
It is sad how at an early age we were cursed but so long as we don't blame ourselves. We need to target the cause and our thoughts we can perservere.
Maybe its easier for me to think this way now, about 10 years ago I would just feel cold all the time, and hated the noise of people chattering. While I was in class or anywhere public wishing I could join in, but alas I always found I couldn't utter a single word and the mind went blank and I felt as if falling in an endless abyss. Still that horrible feeling of impending doom still haunts me.
Sometimes I wonder about meet up groups for SP, forcing yourself to be with people has helped me alot, also reading about psychology and developing a thick skin.
No one should be lonely no one! If you can find but one friend who cherishes and trully cares about you, you have won.
It is sad how at an early age we were cursed but so long as we don't blame ourselves. We need to target the cause and our thoughts we can perservere.
Maybe its easier for me to think this way now, about 10 years ago I would just feel cold all the time, and hated the noise of people chattering. While I was in class or anywhere public wishing I could join in, but alas I always found I couldn't utter a single word and the mind went blank and I felt as if falling in an endless abyss. Still that horrible feeling of impending doom still haunts me.
Sometimes I wonder about meet up groups for SP, forcing yourself to be with people has helped me alot, also reading about psychology and developing a thick skin.
No one should be lonely no one! If you can find but one friend who cherishes and trully cares about you, you have won.
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TheRadicalAnxiousLefty
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It is hard being a social phobic. Everyone you meet, you have to have your guard up with, to some extent. My guard is even up around my family now, because I'm always worried they will ask about uni and city life, and I will make a Freudian slip and say "I don't really know what I want to do if I graduate uni" and "I don't have a city life". It just seems that the only place to be and act like my literal self is when there is no-one else around. I'm even scared of talking to my youngest step-brothers, because of the chance that they might think I'm a wierdo and tell all their friends at school how strange I am.
I've only really got one friend in the city, and that is only because he is always approaching ME, asking ME if I wanna do stuff, or initiating online conversations with me. I never approach anyone myself, try to make my own friends, ask anyone if they wanna do stuff, or even go out at all for that matter, unless invited.
Moreover, when I meet someone or start talking too them, I am always thinking "How do I look? Does my skin have blemishes? Do I look fat? Do I look like a stupid hippy with my long hair? Will they look down on me like I'm proletarian debris? Will they start talking about their life and how awesome it is? Will they start inquiring and probing into my life? ****, I'll have to make stuff up! What if they find out I lied to them? I won't be able to look them in the face if I meet them again!" Hence I am usually thinking of how to get away as quickly as possible.
So yeah, I'm alone much of the time. And it isn't always fabulous. Sometimes it is genuinely lonely.
I've only really got one friend in the city, and that is only because he is always approaching ME, asking ME if I wanna do stuff, or initiating online conversations with me. I never approach anyone myself, try to make my own friends, ask anyone if they wanna do stuff, or even go out at all for that matter, unless invited.
Moreover, when I meet someone or start talking too them, I am always thinking "How do I look? Does my skin have blemishes? Do I look fat? Do I look like a stupid hippy with my long hair? Will they look down on me like I'm proletarian debris? Will they start talking about their life and how awesome it is? Will they start inquiring and probing into my life? ****, I'll have to make stuff up! What if they find out I lied to them? I won't be able to look them in the face if I meet them again!" Hence I am usually thinking of how to get away as quickly as possible.
So yeah, I'm alone much of the time. And it isn't always fabulous. Sometimes it is genuinely lonely.
-lonestar-
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there's times when people want to hang out with them, but I just know it won't be fun.
WeirdyMcGee
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Completely and utterly alone.
It's my own choice, though.
It's my own choice, though.
Deus_Ex_Lemur
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It's funny how that works. For many reasons - it becomes your choice, mine too, perhaps not 100% - and even when with ppl, if depressed or with other issues, you can still feel completely and utterly alone.
But I KNOW this won't always be the case. For it hasn't always been I know for me, and I know for most people there's been a time - and will be better again. For everyone if we somewhere deep down believe we will end the lonliness and DESERVE not to be alone and go turn our alienation to congregation of the soul and spirit and sing a ballad with semblance of happiness and fulfillment.
(wow that's gushy and confusing, ah well