i have trouble expressing, and even feeling, emotions. i thought it was just me, but seeing all those posts from ppl with SA, makes me think its cuz of my SA. i have trouble actually feeling the emotions of love or affection, even when i had a boyfriend i was unsure how to act with him because i didnt feel anything for him, so how am i suppose to express affection when i dont even feel it? and i feel this way about everyone too. also, i have trouble expressing happiness and gratitude, and when i try to it just comes out awkwardly. like ill quietly say "thanks" to someone, or try to smile when they r being nice, but it just doesnt come out right and then i get the feeling that the other person thinks im being rude or unappreciative because i wasnt so emotional, engaged, or enthusiastic about wut they said/did. and when i get angry, im not sure how to express it either, so i usually just hold back my anger inside of me and replay things in my head and think about wutever made me angry for hours. i also find that writing while im angry tends to disipate my anger and calm me down.