Despair

[ella_missing]

I think sometimes depression is like your life ended but you're still alive. So you have to do something but it's hard. Really hard . And then there are times you feel ending your life could be better but it already feels like that,so why do it? Maybe, I can get stronger with time.
I hate feeling hopeless most times.
What makes you feel better?

 

[WishingICould]

I think sometimes depression is like your life ended but you're still alive. So you have to do something but it's hard. Really hard . And then there are times you feel ending your life could be better but it already feels like that,so why do it? Maybe, I can get stronger with time.
I hate feeling hopeless most times.
What makes you feel better?

I feel like that all the time. I can't remember the last time i was happy. If you suffer from depression you can't just cheer yourself up. The only way to feel better, i think, is anti depressants and therapy, which i do neither of.

 

[ImNotMyIllness]

Depression makes me feel like a Zombie! My depression comes in cycles. I basically wait for it to lift. Then I have tons of energy and I'm very motivated. That's when I get stuff done.
My ambitions keep me going. Although, the depression makes me feel like I'm moving through mud.

 

[Lamb]

I think sometimes depression is like your life ended but you're still alive. So you have to do something but it's hard. Really hard . And then there are times you feel ending your life could be better but it already feels like that,so why do it? Maybe, I can get stronger with time.
I hate feeling hopeless most times.
What makes you feel better?

If I'm feeling very low, nothing. Laying in bed is the only thing I can do. If just starting to rise from a slump, accomplishing little task can be very rewarding. Whether it's taking a shower, going for a short walk, laundry. Watching a funny youtube video. I personally enjoy dancing around the house when nobody's home and sliding in socks.
Anything you enjoy doing really, in small doses.

 

[ImNotMyIllness]

I personally enjoy dancing around the house when nobody's home and sliding in socks. lol

I have an image of you doing that.

 

[ella_missing]

Depression makes me feel like a Zombie! My depression comes in cycles. I basically wait for it to lift. Then I have tons of energy and I'm very motivated. That's when I get stuff done.
My ambitions keep me going. Although, the depression makes me feel like I'm moving through mud.

I think my depression is like that too but it seems to me i'm depressed all the time.

 

[Kiwong]

My depression is only moderate apparently. Remarkeably whilst depression can make me feel hopelessly broken at times, I still see hope and can even be happy.

 

[ella_missing]

When I see hope,that's the best thing.

 

[Xervello]

I think sometimes depression is like your life ended but you're still alive. So you have to do something but it's hard. Really hard . And then there are times you feel ending your life could be better but it already feels like that,so why do it? Maybe, I can get stronger with time.
I hate feeling hopeless most times.
What makes you feel better?

Well put, ella. Have you tried seeing anyone for it? Therapy and/or medication helps some.

 

[squidgee]

I'm not even sure if the rare moments of happiness I feel are real. As in, I know I'm feeling happy during those short periods of time, but it never seems... genuine? Don't really know if that's the right word or if this makes any sense. There seems to always be something at the back of my mind that prevents from feeling truly carefree and joyful.

 

[Opaline]

My depression is only moderate apparently. Remarkeably whilst depression can make me feel hopelessly broken at times, I still see hope and can even be happy.

I am the same way. I can get really, really down sometimes and yet I can carry on a "normal" conversation and even laugh while a dark cloud is hanging over my head. It baffles me but I'm grateful for it.

 

[WishingICould]

If something good happens to me, no matter how small, i always panic because i know something bad will happen to ruin it.

 

[Opaline]

As someone else asked, have you seen a mental health professional for your depression, or mentioned it to your doctor?

 

[Liliford_]

I thought my bought of depression was going to beat me down for good, but I waited it. I took my hate for the depression and used it to motivate me to fight it.
I alose found changes in my lifestyle helped, it stopped the monotony that was my life.
But the one of the most important things I personally found helped me was to just be/think positive. Which was personally extremely difficult. But it worked wonders.

Good luck with feeling better, you're not alone

 

[ella_missing]

I'm not even sure if the rare moments of happiness I feel are real. As in, I know I'm feeling happy during those short periods of time, but it never seems... genuine? Don't really know if that's the right word or if this makes any sense. There seems to always be something at the back of my mind that prevents from feeling truly carefree and joyful.

This, exactly.

 

[ella_missing]

As someone else asked, have you seen a mental health professional for your depression, or mentioned it to your doctor?

Yes I have and I'm taking meds too.

 

[miserablecow]

I feel the same way, but lately it feels like I'm on a rollacoaster. My moods are contantly up (not the mormal up, but delusions, amongst other things) and down. I do take citalopram, but that hasn't helped.

 

[ella_missing]

I'm going to stay in my bed again.
Can someone inbox me?

 

[christa]

Nothing makes me feel better. I am always worrying over something

 

[ella_missing]

Deciding that I want to take a shower made me get out bed. Does everyone get so tired?