I do, ella. For the past week I've been waking up, lying in bed not wanting to get out of bed, eventually do, come online and check out my stuffs, then go back to bed and sleep. Even if I'm not sleepy. I've found that if I exercise (who can exercise when you can't even get out of bed!?) a little, my energy does perk up for quite a long time. Enough to move around and do some of the normal things I do. Some jumping jacks, push-ups or whatever else does help boost your energy. Even when depressed.
Today, I didn't stay in bed.
I had 1/2 croissant and a small piece of bread with butter and felt worse. I promised to not eat anything else because I have been eating a lot without feeling hungry. If I don't eat more tonight, I might feel a bit better.
I tend to get up even though I feel horrendous because if I don't, it'll cause some concern in the household as no-one knows about depression, SA.
I and others here know how you feel, it can be debilitating and demoralising. I found starting to run to lose weight, doing press ups helped me a tad, focus abit more but then the fricking weather came and snowed, which didn't allow me to do it for two weeks. Now, I'm finding it a struggle to re-continue.
What keeps me distracted is browsing the net, writing on forums, checking emails, reading news/sports stories etc. Other than that, not alot and I'm left to think about things.
despair, apathy, depression and nihilistic thinking consume me. The thought that nothing really matters in the end. The feeling that a loving god who i once had such strong faith in is no longer a factor in the outcome of my life and the world:question: hope remains in an ultimate good, but i am currently drowning in the abyss
I try to stay out of their way, but that isn't always possible. And when I do see them my day just plummets, and I get lost in useless thoughts, and despair that I will lose out to my anxiety and may not even survive it.
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