jaim38. I think your activities are awesome and unique! I like to dance around my room like a crazy person to anime songs. Usually when I watch an opening intro song to an anime that I find catchy with a nice beat, I just have to get up from my chair and dance around a bit. I love to draw (anime pictures) watch anime, read manga, play anime video games, like Ultimate Ninja Storm 3, Persona 4 Arena, Disgaea D2, etc. My personality comes out when I'm alone for the most part, or if I'm around family members. When I step out of my comfort zone, which I do once a week to participate in a group, I become very quiet, timid, anxious, my voice shakes when I talk, I feel dull minded, boring, I feel that my very presence being there is bothering people or weirding people out because of my painful and dead silence. But then when I finally do say something, the whole room lights up for a minute because people are not use to hearing my voice, and I believe it kind of catches them by surprise.
Tree, I am definitely in the same situation as you are, and you described that perfectly. I find that I can never feel confident in reveling my true self, because I somewhat care what other people think. I am working on not caring what people think, but right now I do care. And I often feel like I don't measure up, like I'm not as smart or fun so therefore, I'm just some guy in the background whose present but unnoticed. <.<