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Arohanui - Ake Ake KiaKaha's Journal

Started by KiaKaha · Mar 18, 2012 · 612 replies

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I am feeling a bit down.

I have a major legal issue - and it feels like no one is listening to me.
I was entitled to a student allowance when I wasnt supposed to be - and now I have to pay it back. I dont have the money to pay it back - but most of all, it was someone elses error - so why am I being held accountable?

It is just making me feel bad. Bad because yet again I am alone. Yet again I have no one to support me or be on my side. Yet again I am just sinking further and further and further into never ending debt. I am just becoming a slave with no existence.

I get so tired of such an unsupportive, cold, selfish world. Where people get constantly left behind, where we all HAVE to be selfish because if we arent then people will just take advantage. It makes me feel very very very depressed and alone.
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Yeah that sounds pretty bad that you have to pay it back. Hang in there man, hope something goes your way soon.
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KiaKaha said: ↑
I am feeling a bit down.

I have a major legal issue - and it feels like no one is listening to me.
I was entitled to a student allowance when I wasnt supposed to be - and now I have to pay it back. I dont have the money to pay it back - but most of all, it was someone elses error - so why am I being held accountable?.

You're right, that doesn't sound very fair. They made the mistake, and therefore they should swallow the loss. But I'm guessing this allowance came from the government, in which case I doubt there's any way that's going to happen. Nothing and no one has a more inflated sense of entitlement than government. :🙁:
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Kiwong said: ↑
Yeah that sounds pretty bad that you have to pay it back. Hang in there man, hope something goes your way soon.

Rembrandt Broam said: ↑
You're right, that doesn't sound very fair. They made the mistake, and therefore they should swallow the loss. But I'm guessing this allowance came from the government, in which case I doubt there's any way that's going to happen. Nothing and no one has a more inflated sense of entitlement than government. :🙁:

Thank you both.

Yes Rembrandt - that is exactly right. Of course there is more specifics to how this came about and I was tempted to express it, but... it is too long and complicated.
Lets just say that when I went to study - I was under the impression that I was allowed a student allowance, and now they have turned around and said...whoops...sorry you WERENT supposed to have that....give it all back now.

It is going to take me YEARS.
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KiaKaha said: ↑
I am feeling a bit down.

I have a major legal issue - and it feels like no one is listening to me.
I was entitled to a student allowance when I wasnt supposed to be - and now I have to pay it back. I dont have the money to pay it back - but most of all, it was someone elses error - so why am I being held accountable?

It is just making me feel bad. Bad because yet again I am alone. Yet again I have no one to support me or be on my side. Yet again I am just sinking further and further and further into never ending debt. I am just becoming a slave with no existence.

I get so tired of such an unsupportive, cold, selfish world. Where people get constantly left behind, where we all HAVE to be selfish because if we arent then people will just take advantage. It makes me feel very very very depressed and alone.
I'm sorry Kia, it sucks that you've no one to support you. I know the feeling. I hope everything gets sorted.
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I still think you should fight it to your last breath, Kia. You owe a lot of money and you shouldn't have to pay it.
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MikeyC said: ↑
I still think you should fight it to your last breath, Kia. You owe a lot of money and you shouldn't have to pay it.

I am trying Mikey - the place that I studied is blowing me off. I have a community lawyer looking into it. I mentioned this on another forum (I visit a forum that is very unsympathetic to the woes of others... for comparison of peoples attitudes - and a reality check) and I got ZERO sympathy... in fact all I got was attacked. I am bound by government policy and bureaucracy. I will try... I just need to get used to not having anyone believe in me. Standing alone is really hard sometimes.

Srijita52 said: ↑
I'm sorry Kia, it sucks that you've no one to support you. I know the feeling. I hope everything gets sorted.

Thank you Srijita - this is a feeling that I experience often. It's in my gut. I have this feeling, this premonition that one day - because of my overwhelming mediocrity, that eventually I am going to become a person that is forgotten and completely unwanted.

And the day that that happens....will not be good.
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KiaKaha said: ↑
I am trying Mikey - the place that I studied is blowing me off. I have a community lawyer looking into it. I mentioned this on another forum (I visit a forum that is very unsympathetic to the woes of others... for comparison of peoples attitudes - and a reality check) and I got ZERO sympathy... in fact all I got was attacked. I am bound by government policy and bureaucracy. I will try... I just need to get used to not having anyone believe in me. Standing alone is really hard sometimes.
You're not alone, though. I may be across the ditch but I am in 100% support of you. It's not going to be a walk in the park having to deal with the government and getting them to admit their error, but it's a lot of money and you shouldn't have to pay it, even if you had the means to.

All of us are behind you, my good friend. 🙂
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KiaKaha said: ↑
Thank you Srijita - this is a feeling that I experience often. It's in my gut. I have this feeling, this premonition that one day - because of my overwhelming mediocrity, that eventually I am going to become a person that is forgotten and completely unwanted.

And the day that that happens....will not be good.
I hope it never happens Kia, like Mikey said, all of us are here with you.
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KiaKaha said: ↑
I am trying Mikey - the place that I studied is blowing me off. I have a community lawyer looking into it. I mentioned this on another forum (I visit a forum that is very unsympathetic to the woes of others... for comparison of peoples attitudes - and a reality check) and I got ZERO sympathy... in fact all I got was attacked.

I have this feeling, this premonition that one day - because of my overwhelming mediocrity, that eventually I am going to become a person that is forgotten and completely unwanted.

And the day that that happens....will not be good.

How unfortunate. I agree if it was human error and you were a student there you shouldn't have to pay a thing. I completely understand, personally I do. Fight this out strong. I definitely hope that never happens either. You're still very much cared about here, you're as sweet as can be, no one ever wants that :🙁:.
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You're talented, mate. 🙂
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that's awesome!

wish i could play an instrument

are you a lefty?
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MikeyC said: ↑
You're talented, mate. 🙂

Thanks man - you aint so bad yourself pounding out a groove on the drums...

coyote said: ↑
that's awesome!

wish i could play an instrument

are you a lefty?

Thanks Coyote,

I can barely play myself - but you're never too old to learn a few chords...

I am a righty... strum with the right, fret with the left.

:d
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KiaKaha said: ↑
I am a righty... strum with the right, fret with the left.

:d

your video is backwards then, or did you shoot into the mirror?
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coyote said: ↑
your video is backwards then, or did you shoot into the mirror?

Naw, I just use my webcam that is attached to my computer.
I never noticed that before.
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KiaKaha said: ↑
Naw, I just use my webcam that is attached to my computer.
I never noticed that before.

it's still awesome :]
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Girls love a guy that can play guitar. Especially the silent, mysterious types. You've got a lot going for you, I hope you can see that some day soon.
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KiaKaha said: ↑
Thanks man - you aint so bad yourself pounding out a groove on the drums...
Thank you. 🙂
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Thank you Mzbuzz - that is kind of you to say - sometimes it doesn't feel that way... based on what is seemingly important.
Thank you though, that is very sweet of you.

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