To give my answer to topic:
I am not afraid of dying, in fact I would be happy to die and leave the world innocently if I don't hurt anyone. But I definitely would not suicide ... what would people think of me afterwards, they would probably look down at me, and I don't want that to be on my parents shoulders, who are already hurt enough. And its also a sin (I'm Christian, even though I had many bad experiences in Church)
I'm still young, I'm scared of the after effects. Okay, I guess I'm scared of dying as a whole... lol I'm confused.