I don't know there, I could easily say that I don't have any friends and never had any, but maybe the thing is that I did but did not interact with any of them on any level whatsoever, no talking nothing. Because why? Probably because I don't want to bother them with my nonsense and weirdness, although in the world I live in I wouldn't say there such a thing as something non-weird (particularly the normal emotional stuff).
I just watch them through my unbreakable window, living a real life, while I stay in my little world and fantasize about how good it would be to have a real life in the vain attempt of making fiction feel more real than reality.
Bottom line is, I'm not worthy of a real life or any positive human interactions, or even anything positive, but that's just all part of the "plan".