oops, i think i already did this in a new topic BUT Imma do it here since I already feel like a nimbus, can't really make it worse, right? LOL. I'm Rachel, 20 almost 21, in Seattle, and living with SP for about 8 years now *8 years being when I knew what it was, God knows how long I've actually had it*
Everyday I procrastinate on not leaving my apartment that I share with a friend. I can't go job hunting because of severe panic attacks before I'm even out the door, and when I don't have them, I walk around with my hood over my head in public, afraid to bump into people I know or even see them. I'm petrified of even my friends, I don't fully trust them even when I know I can.
Anyway, it's hard living with it, always has been. I can't even go check out colleges or do some research on moving out of the city alone like I want to sometime soon.
I smoke a pack a day, I constantly bite my nails, stutter when I'm talking to people in person, and even stop eating when it's at its worse. Doesn't help I have Schizophrenia, OCD and Bipolar but I honestly think the SP is worse than them all.