I'm glad you're feeling pretty good! I'm glad you had a good night out that night and saw Kings of Leon concert in Glasgow with your oldest sister, one of your family. Sorry to hear about the drunken fights that happened briefly in the crowd. Glad the atmosphere was great and there was good reception and overall it was nice.I'm feeling pretty good, all things considered. I had a good night out last night. My oldest sister and I went and saw Kings of Leon in Glasgow. Best concert we've attended in a long time, despite the concert having to be stopped twice, briefly, because drunken fights broke out in the crowd during Kings of Leon's set. That aside atmosphere was great, as always, at concerts in Glasgow. Even the local support band got a good reception; playing to a nearly full room.
Basically, the short of it is: I'm tired of being an emotional shock absorber. Tired of always being the one that has to begrudgingly pick up the pieces. Tired of being the example I never had growing up.How am I feeling? Well...
It's hard to say, really. Ah mean, I'm experiencing multiple feelings at the moment. None of them positive.
Angry. Depressed. Miserable. Unhappy. Troubled. Alone.
Just processing the usual, upsetting dysfunctional, toxic family BS that I've been conditioned to accept as normal for last 20 years or so, and realising I'm at my breaking point.
But then, having to listen to yer older sister yelled at, and berate, our mother during yet another nonsensical argument will do that to ye.
Not that, the toll it's taken upon me over the year, or how much it bothers me that we're like this is even considered, like. That stuff normally brushed aside, laughed off and invalidated if I dare speak about it. Or excuses are always made to somewhat justify the constantly shouty arguments. Because having to put up a female sibling who prone to unhinged, expletive ladden bouts of anger over the most petty $h!% – even though most would call that for what is: Wrong! – is sitcom-worthy, right? Or, as is usually the case: I get the silent treatment or some storms off in the huff. So, my mother and sisters can avoid having acknowledge or admitting that I'm right.
Even though I hate that that's how it is for me. That I'm just supposed to fake a smile and pretend like stuff doesn't bother me when it does.
Sorry to hear you're not doing very well, Graeme, because of something that happened in your family. You deserve better. You can PM me if you want to get your mind off of it. I had just written to you above in a post how glad I was about you in doing well in Glasgow, treasure those memories. I went bike riding but overall the pavement wasn't good and the bike was different, it was the rental kinds and so I won't be going anymore but I still had fun. I will be sticking with the group walk but I got to meet one of the facilitators and he was so nice, they were all nice. I had a wonderful experience, I just felt bad that I was slowing him down since he said he will stay behind with me and go slowly while I walked my bike and I also rode it at some parts. I also had the thrill of going down the hill in the end with him before I said I was too tired to go on and we put the bike back afterwards. You guys should attend a church and find someone who can help you with your family and with God. God can help with prayer and this argument problem. We need God, to follow his temperament and how he would do things, learn His ways, that's what can help with these arguments. We need to commit our lives to God and cast all our cares on Him for He cares for us. And we need to love God for who He is. Sorry for talking about God but it's true! I feel it! We need God for everything, as our source. We are the branches and He is the vine!How am I feeling? Well...
It's hard to say, really. Ah mean, I'm experiencing multiple feelings at the moment. None of them positive.
Angry. Depressed. Miserable. Unhappy. Troubled. Alone.
Just processing the usual, upsetting dysfunctional, toxic family BS that I've been conditioned to accept as normal for last 20 years or so, and realising I'm at my breaking point.
But then, having to listen to yer older sister yelled at, and berate, our mother during yet another nonsensical argument will do that to ye.
Not that, the toll it's taken upon me over the year, or how much it bothers me that we're like this is even considered, like. That stuff normally brushed aside, laughed off and invalidated if I dare speak about it. Or excuses are always made to somewhat justify the constantly shouty arguments. Because having to put up a female sibling who prone to unhinged, expletive ladden bouts of anger over the most petty $h!% – even though most would call that for what is: Wrong! – is sitcom-worthy, right? Or, as is usually the case: I get the silent treatment or some storms off in the huff. So, my mother and sisters can avoid having acknowledge or admitting that I'm right.
Even though I hate that that's how it is for me. That I'm just supposed to fake a smile and pretend like stuff doesn't bother me when it does.
I know I deserve better. So does my mother... I just wishing my sisters would realise that as well.Sorry to hear you're not doing very well, Graeme, because of something that happened in your family. You deserve better.
Oh, I do treasure those memories. Every single one; because I rarely come home from a show I've attended in Glasgow – be it music concert or live comedy show – feeling disappointed.You can PM me if you want to get your mind off of it. I had just written to you above in a post how glad I was about you in doing well in Glasgow, treasure those memories.
I recently got a sore throat too! but I think I'm almost getting better. Rest up, drink good water and liquids, fruits and get well soon Graeme!I'm not feeling too well. I've got a sore throat and I hurt the side of my right foot, but I've been resting up and am slowly getting better.
Thank you, lily. We're currently experiencing a bit of heatwave here in Scotland, and over the UK as a whole; so it's too hot to do much, if anything, at the moment.I recently got a sore throat too! but I think I'm almost getting better. Rest up, drink good water and liquids, fruits and get well soon Graeme!