Post your random thoughts/feelings etc
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lonely_drummer
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Blur was and still is one of my favourite bands lol
I would have a hard time not eating you ::
That's the first time a straight guy ever said that to me! :
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Vampayah88
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I have no energy today...I'm really tired, just not feeling well. What a f*cked up vacation, or more like year. I'm sad this is my last summer vacation before I finish uni, and it has to be like this. I feel like screaming, I want to run away from here, far far away.
Invisibleman
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Yeah I know what you mean, I feel the exact same. Except for me im the opposite, this is my last summer vacation before I start University.
MrJones
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lolThat's the first time a straight guy ever said that to me! :
Hey, for Pete Sah, everything
I actually had one today!
Remember what you want to do after uni! Things will get better
I was reading about the Colorado shooting and worried that I may be like that someday. I don't instend to. I'm worried about my mind snapping, and when someones mind snaps, it like they are gone in someone else took over.
"An idle mind is the devils workshop" someone told me. I am lonely, and have a curse. I don't have anyone to hang out with. I have one fried, and she lives far away. She isn't on-line that much.
I can't have friends or a job, becuase of my canker sores and my curse.
I keep thinking, that someday, I will go out on a blind rage and start going around shooting as many people as I can. The next thing I know, I will find myself in a jail cell, a courtroom or something and wondering what went wrong? Why did I do this?
I don't want to turn into a monster, I don't know what to do. 3 or 4 years ago. I thought that my mind was on the verge os snapping then, but I'm still here, holding myself together. I'm making sure that something like that dosen't happen.
We all have a breaking point. Eventually, you become overloaded and that's when you mind snaps. It's like an elestic. You keep pulling on it, or use it so many times, it will break.
My mind could snap at any time, a week o month, a year from now, who knows. When I get depressed I fight to hold myself together, to avoid lossing it and becoming something like that. Last night, I thought my mind was going to snap. I thought to myself. Here I am, no one, no ability to have friends, or be successful becuase of my curse. No one wants anything to do with me for whatever reason. People judge me, I jhave no good looks at all, so it's impossible for me to have a girlfriend. I was thinking that I will be this way for the rest of my life and that really hurt. It's what always happens when I get depressed. Then I cry, and I get a pain in my heart. I hope it's a heart attack, that kills me, but it's just emotional pain. A sharp throbbing pain in my heart. I can hardly swallow.
Everytime, I try to get help, I explain to people, but people don't understand. My communication skills are the worst ever. I can't explain to people how I feel, or anything.
"An idle mind is the devils workshop" someone told me. I am lonely, and have a curse. I don't have anyone to hang out with. I have one fried, and she lives far away. She isn't on-line that much.
I can't have friends or a job, becuase of my canker sores and my curse.
I keep thinking, that someday, I will go out on a blind rage and start going around shooting as many people as I can. The next thing I know, I will find myself in a jail cell, a courtroom or something and wondering what went wrong? Why did I do this?
I don't want to turn into a monster, I don't know what to do. 3 or 4 years ago. I thought that my mind was on the verge os snapping then, but I'm still here, holding myself together. I'm making sure that something like that dosen't happen.
We all have a breaking point. Eventually, you become overloaded and that's when you mind snaps. It's like an elestic. You keep pulling on it, or use it so many times, it will break.
My mind could snap at any time, a week o month, a year from now, who knows. When I get depressed I fight to hold myself together, to avoid lossing it and becoming something like that. Last night, I thought my mind was going to snap. I thought to myself. Here I am, no one, no ability to have friends, or be successful becuase of my curse. No one wants anything to do with me for whatever reason. People judge me, I jhave no good looks at all, so it's impossible for me to have a girlfriend. I was thinking that I will be this way for the rest of my life and that really hurt. It's what always happens when I get depressed. Then I cry, and I get a pain in my heart. I hope it's a heart attack, that kills me, but it's just emotional pain. A sharp throbbing pain in my heart. I can hardly swallow.
Everytime, I try to get help, I explain to people, but people don't understand. My communication skills are the worst ever. I can't explain to people how I feel, or anything.
Labyrinthine
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First thing someone says to me when I got to work was in regards to the jacket I have on (that it's silly because it's hot out). She tried to get me to wear her dress.
What a lovely start to my night xD. Everyone thinks I'm dressed like a freak.
What a lovely start to my night xD. Everyone thinks I'm dressed like a freak.
I was reading about the Colorado shooting and worried that I may be like that someday. I don't instend to. I'm worried about my mind snapping, and when someones mind snaps, it like they are gone in someone else took over.
"An idle mind is the devils workshop" someone told me. I am lonely, and have a curse. I don't have anyone to hang out with. I have one fried, and she lives far away. She isn't on-line that much.
I can't have friends or a job, becuase of my canker sores and my curse.
I keep thinking, that someday, I will go out on a blind rage and start going around shooting as many people as I can. The next thing I know, I will find myself in a jail cell, a courtroom or something and wondering what went wrong? Why did I do this?
I don't want to turn into a monster, I don't know what to do. 3 or 4 years ago. I thought that my mind was on the verge os snapping then, but I'm still here, holding myself together. I'm making sure that something like that dosen't happen.
We all have a breaking point. Eventually, you become overloaded and that's when you mind snaps. It's like an elestic. You keep pulling on it, or use it so many times, it will break.
My mind could snap at any time, a week o month, a year from now, who knows. When I get depressed I fight to hold myself together, to avoid lossing it and becoming something like that. Last night, I thought my mind was going to snap. I thought to myself. Here I am, no one, no ability to have friends, or be successful becuase of my curse. No one wants anything to do with me for whatever reason. People judge me, I jhave no good looks at all, so it's impossible for me to have a girlfriend. I was thinking that I will be this way for the rest of my life and that really hurt. It's what always happens when I get depressed. Then I cry, and I get a pain in my heart. I hope it's a heart attack, that kills me, but it's just emotional pain. A sharp throbbing pain in my heart. I can hardly swallow.
Everytime, I try to get help, I explain to people, but people don't understand. My communication skills are the worst ever. I can't explain to people how I feel, or anything.
"An idle mind is the devils workshop" someone told me. I am lonely, and have a curse. I don't have anyone to hang out with. I have one fried, and she lives far away. She isn't on-line that much.
I can't have friends or a job, becuase of my canker sores and my curse.
I keep thinking, that someday, I will go out on a blind rage and start going around shooting as many people as I can. The next thing I know, I will find myself in a jail cell, a courtroom or something and wondering what went wrong? Why did I do this?
I don't want to turn into a monster, I don't know what to do. 3 or 4 years ago. I thought that my mind was on the verge os snapping then, but I'm still here, holding myself together. I'm making sure that something like that dosen't happen.
We all have a breaking point. Eventually, you become overloaded and that's when you mind snaps. It's like an elestic. You keep pulling on it, or use it so many times, it will break.
My mind could snap at any time, a week o month, a year from now, who knows. When I get depressed I fight to hold myself together, to avoid lossing it and becoming something like that. Last night, I thought my mind was going to snap. I thought to myself. Here I am, no one, no ability to have friends, or be successful becuase of my curse. No one wants anything to do with me for whatever reason. People judge me, I jhave no good looks at all, so it's impossible for me to have a girlfriend. I was thinking that I will be this way for the rest of my life and that really hurt. It's what always happens when I get depressed. Then I cry, and I get a pain in my heart. I hope it's a heart attack, that kills me, but it's just emotional pain. A sharp throbbing pain in my heart. I can hardly swallow.
Everytime, I try to get help, I explain to people, but people don't understand. My communication skills are the worst ever. I can't explain to people how I feel, or anything.
MrSunday
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Well continue to post here. It allows you to express your emotions, rather than bottling it all up.
It's really tough out there.
I suspect your very angry. I think this is why people snap. There is so much pressure and so little help that you want to release your frustration on society that is actually the source of the problem. Of course killing society is not the most practicable solution.
Some individuals kill other people to gain attention. Do you feel ignored and left alone to suffer?
I personally felt like killing people to get revenge, though I will never do that because I have too much to lose.
How about we start with asking one question...what do you want? Forget everyone else. Just think what do you actually want.
I want to live a peaceful life, far away from the city, but not in the countryside. I want stability and a calm life. I hate forming relationships as this leads to arguments and even physical confrontation. So I want to be alone.
I want to be with someone. I blame society of some of my problems and one of the reasons why I'm lonely and unable to find someone. I just want a friend, someone to be with me and look out for me.
Busy with work, sister is still getting on everybody nerves, had fun at the water park, I'm still a bit stressed out, can't stop scratching and breaking out a bit from a bar of soap and wondering how's everyone.
I got bugged out today because some people just think they can complain just to get free food. A big embarrassment, you can't take some people no where. Nothing was wrong with the food, just trying to be greedy, tricky and sly. Making a fuss over nothing. My life, sigh.
I got bugged out today because some people just think they can complain just to get free food. A big embarrassment, you can't take some people no where. Nothing was wrong with the food, just trying to be greedy, tricky and sly. Making a fuss over nothing. My life, sigh.
Tonight, I found out my sister was sorta having a party, becuase she is switching jobs. I randomly decided to go. I mostly just sat their the whole time, but it was good to get out.
There were a few hot waitresses, Jessica, Lindsay and Stephanie. I think I spent most of the time gawking at girls.
There was a really hot one that sat down a half hour before I left, by the window. At first I thought she was there by herself, but then I've seen she had ordered two drinks, someone came and sat down by her. I couldn't help but I keept looking, she seen I had keep looking over at her, probably made her uncomfortable but she ignored it. There was this other one, sitting not far from her, who had ben there half the night. I didn't get upset or get heart broken, like I usually do. I don't mean to sound creepy, but I was observing the one that sat down by the window. The way she smile and laughed with the guy she was with like she knew him for a long time, like they ben together for awhile. I kept thinking, that I want that.
I usually observe people. I wonder what it feels like for them, to be normal. To have someone, who can have a conversation with, laugh and smile with, without worrying that the next thing you do will turn them off, or they suddnely don't like you. To not feel like you're under the microscope. TO be happy and enjoy life. What does it feel like?
There were a few hot waitresses, Jessica, Lindsay and Stephanie. I think I spent most of the time gawking at girls.
There was a really hot one that sat down a half hour before I left, by the window. At first I thought she was there by herself, but then I've seen she had ordered two drinks, someone came and sat down by her. I couldn't help but I keept looking, she seen I had keep looking over at her, probably made her uncomfortable but she ignored it. There was this other one, sitting not far from her, who had ben there half the night. I didn't get upset or get heart broken, like I usually do. I don't mean to sound creepy, but I was observing the one that sat down by the window. The way she smile and laughed with the guy she was with like she knew him for a long time, like they ben together for awhile. I kept thinking, that I want that.
I usually observe people. I wonder what it feels like for them, to be normal. To have someone, who can have a conversation with, laugh and smile with, without worrying that the next thing you do will turn them off, or they suddnely don't like you. To not feel like you're under the microscope. TO be happy and enjoy life. What does it feel like?
Beatmetrics
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Just letting you know what I know...this person may have better facial features than me however hun there not better than me. Just thought I'd put that out there...have a great Friday...I will!
Invisibleman
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Hung out with a friend today. It was alright, it was nice to have some human contact I suppose.
Anyway now that the olympics are on its nice to have even a glimmer of motivation to get out of bed each day-_-
Anyway now that the olympics are on its nice to have even a glimmer of motivation to get out of bed each day-_-
KiaKaha
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Yep me too, I think that wisdom kicks in as we age
I think when you are older your attitude about what you find important changes. With all due respect it a statement like that is not necessarily wisdom, it is more of a personal philosophy that has developed and that works well in conjunction with the stage of life you are currently at.
Besides - there are some things that you shouldn't let go. If we all did that then where would our motivation and inner desires come from? Are these not what partly shapes our own identity? To deny our inner drives is to deny an aspect of ones humanity.
Or at least...thats what I think...
Sometimes I am in disbelief that other people dont find me as amazing as I myself do.
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