Pacific_Loner

Honey well i guess i will never have real friends I'm not able keep them longer time. I worry to much about everything. U are right with this what u said. Like they have to listen me and have to be interested know about mine issues. I would think anyway they don't care even if they would. Before if i were younger i wasn't like this i had friends maybe not horde of them as some people but i had. Now is opposite i have no one and sometimes i feel ok with this coz i think anyway no one would like be mine friend. I think also a lot of people make first impressions and they even don 't try know u better if u know what i mean with that. Do u don't have issues make new friends? Do u have some real friends?

That's very nice drawing is amazing if u are got at and have passion also for it. Well i have hard times trust to people because i don't trust in mine self also i think i'm not good enough to love, not good enough to be company of them or opposite or they are to much social and aren't even interested know me better because they are mean. Well i can't be friend with someone who will smile to me or talk behind mine back. I'm not able make friends coz i'm to complicated and i expect maybe to much as u said. I expect they will like me for who i'm and i will be not ashamed say my struggles. I don't know to who i can say it and to who not sometimes. Some people may understand me some not. I have hard times to trust to anyone and this isolation in mine emotions is real struggle i'm not able let people go close enough coz i'm ashamed for it who i'm.

thank u very much for cheering me bit U said this so funny and nice flesh and bones lol haha

Yes isn't the same and sometimes i get so incredible upset i get so sad that i can't breathe and wanna crawl to hole and die...If i realize i don't have real friends coz i don't know how to have them if i'm so complicated person i can't trust no one fast and if i don't trust i can just have people around which i don't trust and don't know if they truly like me ..I hope u feel good and are very busy with your hobbies I read it you play on this incredible hard instrument wow how long u play on it? It's your true passion?

You bet I can. usually happens with e's but you got a's instead.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Because I can.

Thank you

Cool your from Montreal too? Im from the West-Island, what about you?

The dollar store has so many fantastic marvels.

Do you like bubbles?

coz you're a loner just like me thanks for accepting

Thank you, I never knew you were from up there! Thought you were from Mexico or something.

That does not sound like a good assortment of things to be feeling. :|

Did I say that? That would be...a lie.

I haven't gotten a buzz since NYE, and the last time I was that intoxicated was my birthday the previous March. It's a special occasion thing for me.

Too much is all relative. I had a huge amount New Year's. It wasn't too much though. I wasn't driving anywhere and I didn't have to be particularly responsible (or coherent!). So why was it for you?

I've never had a drink in my life.

Nope.

I quit drinking. And I am feeling 100% better for it. Mind you I will probably do it socially to a safe extent. To minimise anxiety and allow fun to happen.

You can do this. Just takes will power. You can say you've had enough. You are in control.

Buffalo soldia...

Koyaanisqatsi, Powaqqatsi, Naqoyqatsi <-- there they are

Thank you very much, and happy new year to you too! My friends have only just left, and I've had very little alone time.

I am very much looking forward to being all alone with the animals tomorrow.

nice screen name