EscapeArtist

Hey thanks lol I will be okay eventually

Good Luck at school tomorrow, unless I'm off by a week in which good luck next Monday. (Not that you need it or nothin' )

I see. No big deal. You for sure, maybe we can chat again sometime.

I'm doing fantastic and yourself?

Hehe nice . Thanks!

Oh and the job that I might get is "just a job" (waiter - yay for exposure therapy huh?), but it's only temporary till I can do the thing that I really want to do - which I don't want to tell you (yet) cause I feel I might jinx it (I know silly, but still ).

Oh yeah, I did forget to answer one question, oops , sorry!

No, leaving this site didn't contribute to all that change/progress as hugely as you might think. Let me explain. The simple fact is, that I was spending too much time/energy on here and that would prevent me from living life to my fullest potential. This site is helpful and fun (and GREAT for support), but you have to balence it we well with your life. You can't use this site as an escape to an extent/amount that it will get in the way of focusing on your life. Hope that makes sense? If not let me know, and I'll further clarify.

To be honest, I couldn't live without this site - there's too many cool people on here like yourself that I have to get my "fix" at least daily (I'm human - a social creature-, what are ya gonna do? ).

Oh yeah, what's your e-mail address so I can send it to you?

Lol, I wrote a freakin essay, and had to split it into three parts in order to fit it here... sorry ::. But I wanted to answer your questions adequately

Lol, that's okay . You are a "freakin questionnaire", but that's expected, seeing how freakin intelligent you are!

It's very difficult to explain the answers to your questions, but I will try my best. Sorry for not replying earlier, but I had just woken up and had to get something to eat. I guess I can put it in very simple terms - by "finally living", I mean I am finally doing what I want to do in every single situation regardless if I am afraid. I am doing the things that I want in almost every situation that I encounter even if I am afraid.

I stood up to my boss, I said what I wanted to say at work, I lived how I've always wanted to live while at work... sure I got fired partly because of it, but that's okay. That just opened a new opportunity to do something that I really want to do or to find a better job (which I might get next week) and some time off such a stressful and anxiety-creating work environment.

I also got in a fight with one of my roommates that I used to live with (he was being a dick and throwing away my things (clothes/medicine)... so I just moved out (yes, without a job, minimal ammount of money, and with strangers) but it's what I wanted to do, so I did it . I live alone now, but meeting new people here (I'm doing pretty good at it also, except talking to females, I'm still struggling with that :/)

I also know exactly what I want to do with my life now. I actually have goals!!! Realistic, concrete ones too ... and a back-up plan as well, in case that doesn't work out. I feel like I'm 18 and barely beginning my life, never felt like that before - I pretty much felt like a vegetable before.

I suppose the most important thing is, I discovered a wonderful "e-book" about how to overcome social anxiety. It's so damn good and so motivating! I highly recommend it - it's called "Social Anxiety Secrets" (yeah I know 'goofy'/markety name) but regardless of it's crappy name, it is a great book. The author is a past SA sufferer (that ovecame SA) and is a Dr. in psychiatry. I'll send it to you if you want (it's not free but I know you don't have the means to buy it yourself so I wouldn't feel bad about sending it to you). Let me know!

How have you been by the way? I bet you're driving all the lesbian girls that you meet crazy, with those beautiful eyes that you have, huh?

Hey, EA. I think it's about time I asked; what would the perfect life for you be like? Like, just, what kind of life would make you really happy? I know this is like out of nowhere lol but I'm just wondering.

Cool . Well, I'm finally starting to live life (it took me 7 years to do that.) Sure I'm not living to the best of my ability, but at least I'm LIVING! I'm progressing more with my Social Anxiety, am more willing to fight it, and have serious goals to accomplish not just obscure "far-away" ones like I used to.

Good to hear that you've smiled . That makes me smile! People like you are rare, and deserve the very best, in my opinion. Thus, why I have taken it upon myself to make it happen . Bringing a smile to your face is worth all the work in the world (and no - I'm not hitting on you, I know you're lesbian - in case you're wondering). But I genuinely see you as an extremely beautiful and special person. And I hope that one day you get all that you deserve!

I meant as a person by the way... though, you are beautiful physically as well . Sorry, been reading your journal *shy*

You are damn beautiful Escape! You KNOW that . Sorry feeling a bit "stupid" at the moment and not feeling like being (**** I can't even think of the right word but you know what I mean). Anyway, just really wanted to tell you that.

hi ........

very cool carpet drawing - you are awesome

we'll miss ya 'round here

Oh one more thing.
I still have to check my email for schoolwork. So, I will be checking email un/fortunately
[email protected]

Anybody, and especially puma, coyote, phocas, Easyskankin, feathers, vj (you're cool), voltron, ace

I am putting away the evil computer and resisting technology in daily life. Send me a message and I'll eventually get it. Until then, this forum has been wonderful. I'll be back a few times when I need to discuss Social Anxiety complications and successes. Much Love
-Sabrina