Recent content by Cool_Un_Cool

Every day I feel like Gollum from LOTR, a two-sided coin of sorts. I have two extremes in personality, one very angry, and the other jovial. Suicide, and the thought of death comforts me unlike any drug or embrace. Does anyone else know what I am talking about?

My existentialist point of view: Everyone's pathetic...just give them enough time.

I act really strange around girls, either I try to stay secluded from them, or when around them am dead silent. When I am around attractive girls I act like I am autistic, and not interested. I always end up not being able to look them in the face and stare at the ground. I am pathetic!

I try to act as though I am confident, and don't care about how others see me, but the truth is I am extremely self-loathing and feel humiliated all the time. It's like there's a sadistic projectionist in my brain re-caping all of my failures and weaknesses.

I am extremely uncomfortable, and quiet around girls. This is completely humiliating. I just feel embarrassed around them, and that they're better than me.

Unlike most of you, I am physically challenged. I am use to people stairing, and sometimes laughing. It's mostly because of this I hate being around girls, either they pitty me, or mock me. I don't know if anyone else can relate.

I have recently been affected by nightmares, very surreal and involving mythological ogre-type monsters. Overly gorey in nature, as well. I am wondering what could they mean.

I am plagued with nervous tics. I was wondering what causes them.

There's this local steak house, where all the waitresses are attractive and act real friendly with customers. Anyway, when I went there with my brother I was scared to death, and couldn't wait to leave. I HATE being in these places, I'm a pathetic, disgusting person, and I don't like to...

Why is it whenever i just want to be by myself I am some kind of a**hole freak? I constantly get this from my Mom. Anyone else?

There was this neighbor girl, who lived next to me when I was 14, she was like 16 or something. Anyway, one day she came over to use the phone, and I of course hid in my room. Well, my Mom yelled for me to bring her something, so I had to come down and peeked around the steps and there she was...

I hate it, most girls that have known me for a while, like my sister's friends either make fun of me, or feel bad for me. If they aren't making jokes about my awkwardness, they act like I'm a kid, saying things like: "Don't be nervous around us." Also, contantly they keep trying to make me...

Mine are: *Freak on a leash, KoRn *Crawling, Linkin Park *Sugar, System of a down *Do the Evolution, Pearl Jam *Coming Undone, KoRn *Beautiful people, Marilyn Manson *Closer, Nine Inch Nails *In The End, Linkin Park *Ride With Me, Nelly *Chop Suey, System of a down *Here to stay, KoRn *Insane...

My older cousin is very extroverted, she's kind of a loud-mouth s**t stirrer. I guess this is why I don't like being around her. She knows how shy I am and usually embarrasses the hell out of me, like the time she told a drive-thru girl: "He thinks you're hot." :oops: My other cousin is the...

I have a real deep-seeded fear of tornadoes. Tonight, they started popping up in my area, and I thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown! Honestly, being killed isn't as bad as the hell it puts me through. 8O