gustavofring
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I've been trapped in a depression of procrastination, social anxiety, avoidant personality disorder, sleep-disorders etc. sitting at home, and basically doing nothing day in day out. I blame a lot of this on my lack of having "structure" in my life, which I obviously need. No job, no classes. Just me and my project. And I blame myself a lot for my lack of progress. But recently, I've had breakthroughs and finally "found myself again", as in I feel like I've overcome most of it and are on the right track again.
So I've basically had a delay in graduating for 1 year now, in finishing my graduation project. Today I will visit some family for christmas, and they will all ask how progress is going, what I have been doing all this time etc.
I fear a lot of judgemental reactions, or flabbergastedness, or just plain awkwardness, which could potentially be a complete blowback for me to old habits. I'll feel like a lazy bum, a fool who does nothing with his life, while I'm currently working hard on improving. My life just hasn't caught up yet. They'll think, oh here he is again with his "promises" etc.
I don't want to lie but I also don't want to tell people about all of my problems. I know I shouldn't let someone else's opinion weigh so much, because in the end, it's my life, but I hate having to go through this and don't know what I will say. My confidence in my self and my ability to overcome this isn't nearly high enough to not be anxious about this. I don't want to fake an irrational self-confidence to just keep up appearances, but I also don't want to seem like a hopeless fool.
So I've basically had a delay in graduating for 1 year now, in finishing my graduation project. Today I will visit some family for christmas, and they will all ask how progress is going, what I have been doing all this time etc.
I fear a lot of judgemental reactions, or flabbergastedness, or just plain awkwardness, which could potentially be a complete blowback for me to old habits. I'll feel like a lazy bum, a fool who does nothing with his life, while I'm currently working hard on improving. My life just hasn't caught up yet. They'll think, oh here he is again with his "promises" etc.
I don't want to lie but I also don't want to tell people about all of my problems. I know I shouldn't let someone else's opinion weigh so much, because in the end, it's my life, but I hate having to go through this and don't know what I will say. My confidence in my self and my ability to overcome this isn't nearly high enough to not be anxious about this. I don't want to fake an irrational self-confidence to just keep up appearances, but I also don't want to seem like a hopeless fool.
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