yes ..............................Hi - Im not catholic or christian but I like to actively study the fundamentals of Buddhism/dharma.
I believe in( I try to) practice good will to others and I think its nice that you like to think of others and wish them good will in your thoughts/ prayers.
Dear heavenly father God raying:, i know Graeme's been going thru a lot and so i pray for you to help fix her dsyfunctional family. i know you can work in everyone. you r the Most High God in jesus' name Amen
Hi, my name is Michael I am a 29 year old combat veteran. I served in the Marine Corps from 2006 to 2010. I deployed twice once to Afghanistan. I am currently 60% disabled with the VA for PTSD, residuals of tbi. (Traumatic brain injury) which was caused by an explosion from an IED (improvised explosive device) that I am now partly color blind from and hearing loss. Upon returning home I turned to drugs as a coping method for what I had experienced. The drug use cost me my marriage. I had gotten married at 17, graduated at 17 and joined the marines at 17. But as of last year I am no longer married. We have four beautiful children together and this has been, very difficult for them as well. I need prayer because despite the loss and sadness that has come from the confusion of war and death and the choice to turn to drugs with my problems instead of giving them to God has now as of a month ago affected my physical health. At the present time only 20% of my heart is functioning properly, I need prayer because I have heart failure. I've been told I can recover but it will require the obvious no drug use which is fine I have been done for almost a year but I am also going to have to want to get better. My heart needs me to want to live. At present time I'm honestly heart broken over the my marriage, my children and and the loss of friends in Afghanistan. I've never made excuses or sought to get off easy or not accept the consequences of my actions and I know that I've lost what I've lost because of my selfish choices. I'm just asking for prayer to help me keep fighting and help me see myself the way God sees me cause he's very fond of me and I don't know why. Just please any prayer will help thank you. I'm sorry this is so damn long I've just never discussed most of this with anyone so I kind of got carried away.
Hi, my name is Michael I am a 29 year old combat veteran. I served in the Marine Corps from 2006 to 2010. I deployed twice once to Afghanistan. I am currently 60% disabled with the VA for PTSD, residuals of tbi. (Traumatic brain injury) which was caused by an explosion from an IED (improvised explosive device) that I am now partly color blind from and hearing loss. Upon returning home I turned to drugs as a coping method for what I had experienced. The drug use cost me my marriage. I had gotten married at 17, graduated at 17 and joined the marines at 17. But as of last year I am no longer married. We have four beautiful children together and this has been, very difficult for them as well. I need prayer because despite the loss and sadness that has come from the confusion of war and death and the choice to turn to drugs with my problems instead of giving them to God has now as of a month ago affected my physical health. At the present time only 20% of my heart is functioning properly, I need prayer because I have heart failure. I've been told I can recover but it will require the obvious no drug use which is fine I have been done for almost a year but I am also going to have to want to get better. My heart needs me to want to live. At present time I'm honestly heart broken over the my marriage, my children and and the loss of friends in Afghanistan. I've never made excuses or sought to get off easy or not accept the consequences of my actions and I know that I've lost what I've lost because of my selfish choices. I'm just asking for prayer to help me keep fighting and help me see myself the way God sees me cause he's very fond of me and I don't know why. Just please any prayer will help thank you. I'm sorry this is so damn long I've just never discussed most of this with anyone so I kind of got carried away.
You're very welcome. I'm not sure I really understand but perhaps they would kick you out b/c they thought you'd change and stop the drug-use and get help? although that isn't very nice to me b/c you already had so much difficulty and trauma already. i think you still have a chance of a new beginning, even if you lost the first one, a new life or even getting back things you've lost. I'm glad you believe in god.Thank you to both of you who have responded with prayers and hopes. I am greatly appreciative of them. Honestly I don't really have the words to truly express mynot thanks. I didn't realize until recently how I could be in a crowded place yet be so alone, have tons of contacts but have no friends, I dont know its just been a long few years and I'm just amazed how throughout my life I've made fairly decent choices and had lots of "friends" and a real optimistic hope for the future. Yet I make a wrong choice and that is how I'm labeled, that is what determines how I'm looked at, treated, and talked about. Nevermind the the years of "good" choices and selfless desicions I've made the one wrong choice is who,I now am. Why? Granted that one wrong choice led to many other not so great choices being made but that is the primary reason I lost everything. Again I'm not trying to excuse wrong behaviour or bad choices that I've made and am not against having natural consequences to those choices. But to lose everything because of drug use is to me a little over kill. To me those consequences don't fit the crime. Now the heart failure seems like a fair natural consequence to me.
I don't know it seems to me that if someone turns to drugs as a way of coping with life, then I'd venture a guess and say that they are hurting in some way or another. I mean the drug cycle of getting high, coming down, getting high, trying to find more and so on is not fun. It sucks physically, mentally and emotionally. Literally in every way possible the prolonged use of drugs simply sucks. So why is it that as a society whenever we are confronted with a family member or a friend or someone else we know that uses drugs...why is it that the response is to kick them out, take everything from them and in most ways straight up abandon them. Then the kicker is now they are told to get better, seek counseling change your life.
Once again got carried away, I guess I'm just not able to understand how are people supposed to get better or improve their lives if the consequences of making a mistake like using drugs isn't allowed to be forgiven, let go of and put in the past. What I mean by that is, the day I quit using drugs the consequences of me using them should have ceased as well. They didn't though so now I was left with facing tons of consequences having lost everything and also didn't use drugs. I mean if the consequences were because of drug use shouldn't they have stopped once I did? I guess when people are left with nothing but drugs and consequences why not use them at least you can be happy some of the time instead of not using them and still having those consequences affect your life. It seems to me that our response to drug use in itself continues the drug use as a whole.
Kind of got off topic in my ramblings but again thank you both for the kind words it was definitely needed and much appreciated.
OMG NO!!! :sad:Hey everyone,
Not sure if you guys had heard but I just found out tonight Nodesque, I think that is how she spells her user name, Mari IRL is in a coma. I don’t know the details but her cousin was asking for prayers for her. I am hoping we can help her make it through with good thoughts and prayers please for Mari tonight. Thank you.