Auburn
Active member
I get easily frustrated with myself because I suspect my own expectations are stupid high.
Whenever I mess up I tend to lash out. 'Lash out' probably sounds more intense than it actually is. I throw something, dig my nails into skin, or I bash my hand/arm on things and usually (especially) my head. I've never bled or bruised (or at least bruises aren't common) from doing it unless I've bit really hard on my lip or something.
It can be over dumb stuff like not being able to draw that day or getting frustrated in a game and hitting the controller on my head.
This is also probably going to sound odd but I have this constant feeling of needing to scream as loud as I possibly can into some valley or something. It's something I wish I could do. Just to get it all out ya know.
I guess I have a lot of pent up anger maybe. It seems ironic considering my small build.
I feel really crazy tensed up all the time because of it. I haven't really found a way to vent it all.
Whenever I mess up I tend to lash out. 'Lash out' probably sounds more intense than it actually is. I throw something, dig my nails into skin, or I bash my hand/arm on things and usually (especially) my head. I've never bled or bruised (or at least bruises aren't common) from doing it unless I've bit really hard on my lip or something.
It can be over dumb stuff like not being able to draw that day or getting frustrated in a game and hitting the controller on my head.
This is also probably going to sound odd but I have this constant feeling of needing to scream as loud as I possibly can into some valley or something. It's something I wish I could do. Just to get it all out ya know.
I guess I have a lot of pent up anger maybe. It seems ironic considering my small build.
I feel really crazy tensed up all the time because of it. I haven't really found a way to vent it all.