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Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Medication I'm on makes me really tired, I've got no energy. I don't think it's helping any. Also, I'm pissed off that my mother seems more and more concerned about me taking anxiety medication than get therapy to overcome this anxiety. But, no. Can't do that, god forbid I actually talk about my problems. :mad: ::(:
 
MikeyC

MikeyC

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Phoenixx said:
Relieved. Finally took care of all the stupid financial crap from my last college. No money due, I'm not enrolled anymore (which I shouldn't have been to begin with this semester. I told them that after they badgered me with calls, and they still never got it right the first time. :rolleyes:), got the money back I asked for a refund for nearly two months ago, and I finally received the money back from an account I cancelled last month too. *phew* Glad to know I have my money in one place now. I get really nervous when I can't keep track of it. :S
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Yikes, I'm glad it's all back in your account. Having money unaccounted for like that is never good.

Phoenixx said:
I'm really tired today too. Only managed 4 1/2 hours of sleep last night. Went to bed at 12am perfectly fine. Woke right up immediately at 1am straight into a panic attack with my mind and heart racing. Felt like jumping out of bed and running out of my room, I felt so paranoid like I was in danger or something. I have no idea what set it off. I'm still at a loss of what it was caused by. :confused: I haven't had a panic attack like that in a while, and never have I felt like jumping straight out of bed, feeling that paranoid. Took me a while to get back to sleep, then had to get back up at 6am to get ready for school. :/
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Oh, sorry to hear about your panic attack. Maybe you had a dream that you don't remember and you woke up in a panic from that? I hope we don't see the return of those. *hugs*

Graeme1988 said:
Medication I'm on makes me really tired, I've got no energy. I don't think it's helping any. Also, I'm pissed off that my mother seems more and more concerned about me taking anxiety medication than get therapy to overcome this anxiety. But, no. Can't do that, god forbid I actually talk about my problems. :mad: ::(:
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Medication takes a while to sink in and start working, I think. Sucks to hear about your mum not taking a valid interest. :/
 
Phoenixx

Phoenixx

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MikeyC said:
Oh, sorry to hear about your panic attack. Maybe you had a dream that you don't remember and you woke up in a panic from that? I hope we don't see the return of those. *hugs*
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^ Nope. I didn't have a dream/nightmare at all and I clearly remember not dreaming. Usually the really awful nightmares send me into panic attacks similar to that. I'm sure I'm due for one soon though. Haven't had a vividly terrifying one in a while.
 
MikeyC

MikeyC

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Phoenixx said:
^ Nope. I didn't have a dream/nightmare at all and I clearly remember not dreaming. Usually the really awful nightmares send me into panic attacks similar to that. I'm sure I'm due for one soon though. Haven't had a vividly terrifying one in a while.
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We dream every night, but we don't remember all of them. Just a theory as to why you woke up panicky. Hopefully it was a one-off.
 
superfluouslyme

superfluouslyme

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I'm feeling better. I did realize today that it has been one year since my kitten Zooey died. That bummed me out for a bit, but I realized that I gave her the best life I could and I'll always miss her. I also have "blue button thumb" from playing too much Guitar Hero.
 
MsBuzzkillington

MsBuzzkillington

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Going through one of those down moments where I have lots of destructive thoughts. I want this all to stop, just stop. I hate myself, I hate how I have no control, I hate how I am addicted to certain things, not really drugs, but too weird to say out loud. I want to crawl into a hole and die. I am so disappointed in myself.

I hate being alone and having nothing to do. I *guess* it's good I am at least in school. I guess. I should find a job or friends I can hang out with or something. Being in this cycle is too exhausting.
 
this_portrait

this_portrait

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Ugh, I feel all drowsy, like I could lay down and sleep. I don't want to do that just yet, though. Maybe a shower will wake me up a bit.
 
BlueDays

BlueDays

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So very very tired.

I wish I had more energy to reply to the posts that I want to, but I am just brain dead atm :s

(I apologize to those people who's posts I should be replying to)
 
vj288

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
Like I need to do something. I really want to find a job, get something going in my life. I'm in school sure, but I literally have no idea where I'm going with my studies. I'm really starting to consider taking a year off and making some money. Maybe living on my own, actually taking action rather than just what I think I'm supposed to be doing. If I want any hope of finding a job though, I probably need to start going to places and applying rather than doing it on the internet. It just feels so impossible, it shouldn't but that's just such a challenge for me.
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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MsBuzzkillington said:
Going through one of those down moments where I have lots of destructive thoughts. I want this all to stop, just stop. I hate myself, I hate how I have no control, I hate how I am addicted to certain things, not really drugs, but too weird to say out loud. I want to crawl into a hole and die. I am so disappointed in myself.

I hate being alone and having nothing to do. I *guess* it's good I am at least in school. I guess. I should find a job or friends I can hang out with or something. Being in this cycle is too exhausting.
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^Please don't hate yourself, all of us are addicted to something we would want to control in one way or other (well atleast I am lol) you've figured out what you want, now all you need to do is try to reach your goals which I'm sure you can :)
Invisibleman said:
Im actually smiling and in a good mood.Its the first time in a while.
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That's great!!


Nervous!! I've to attend some kind a social gathering (almost like a huge party) within a few hours. I've no idea what am I going to do >.<
 
MikeyC

MikeyC

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MsBuzzkillington said:
Going through one of those down moments where I have lots of destructive thoughts. I want this all to stop, just stop. I hate myself, I hate how I have no control, I hate how I am addicted to certain things, not really drugs, but too weird to say out loud. I want to crawl into a hole and die. I am so disappointed in myself.

I hate being alone and having nothing to do. I *guess* it's good I am at least in school. I guess. I should find a job or friends I can hang out with or something. Being in this cycle is too exhausting.
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Sorry to hear that, Buzz. If I were there I'd hang out with you big time. *mega-hugs*

vj288 said:
Like I need to do something. I really want to find a job, get something going in my life. I'm in school sure, but I literally have no idea where I'm going with my studies. I'm really starting to consider taking a year off and making some money. Maybe living on my own, actually taking action rather than just what I think I'm supposed to be doing. If I want any hope of finding a job though, I probably need to start going to places and applying rather than doing it on the internet. It just feels so impossible, it shouldn't but that's just such a challenge for me.
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Going out and handing out resumes is not an easy thing to do. Also knowing exactly what path we want to take in life is not easy, and never will be. All you can do is follow your heart and hope it works out.

Srijita52 said:
Nervous!! I've to attend some kind a social gathering (almost like a huge party) within a few hours. I've no idea what am I going to do >.<
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Good luck, Srijita! I hope it goes well. :)
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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Well today I realised what I truly am! I'm pathetic, with no chance of improvement who never belongs to anywhere. Gee feels really good to know that!
 
MrJones

MrJones

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Srijita52 said:
Well today I realised what I truly am! I'm pathetic, with no chance of improvement who never belongs to anywhere. Gee feels really good to know that!
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Well, I don't know you personally but I will have to say that your realization is wrong, you are not pathetic.

I still want to find the place I belong (if there is any or people really belong somewhere), and I hope you find one were you're happy :)
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
I regret every telling my mum I need help. Because she doesn't give a f*%k, doesn't care. No matter how many time I try to explain. I'm on my own, always will be. I'm always told I'm wrong, even when I know I'm right. Therapy won't make anything better, according my mum.

So... Don't think. Take a pill. Shut the f*%k up! And be happy.
 
vj288

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
So last night, I went to bed around 1 am, a reasonable time for a Friday night. My newly acquired roommate then comes back around 1:30-1:45, and turns the light on. No big deal, he always keeps the light on until he's ready to go to bed, and while annoying I can still fall asleep. Then at about 3:30, after I was awoken to the sound of gunshots coming from his tv at a very high volume. Apparently he thought it would be a good time to play video games, despite the fact I was clearly sleeping literally 4 feet away. And he did not even make an effort to be considerate of the fact I was sleeping, at least turning it down a tad, maybe playing in the dark, eating a less noisy snack then cheese-it's.

After that, he had the nerve to close my laptop once he decide he was tired, because the backlight was on.

I mean usually here I like to think better me than some other guy who has to put up with this, but I'm trying to give myself some more worth and am not doing that here. He is not entitled to be passive-aggressive toward me for whatever reason he has. If I want to sleep, he should be damn well considerate of the fact I want to sleep. I used to feel bad with past roommates when I was up at 2 or 3 am, light off, headphones in because I thought my typing was to loud.

I don't know if he's doing it because he thinks his needs are more important than mine for whatever reason, or if it's some passive-aggressive attack. I know I'm difficult to live with, never leaving the room and probably appearing disinterested in him and stuck-up. I don't know, either way I deserve better.
 
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