How are you feeling?

[Lea]

I just found out my dad has cancer. :: I'm f**king devastated, crying right now. My dad and I never really got along that well. And early this year I cut off contact with him. ::

That's horrible. I also know someone who has cancer, but he is still very positive and funny and says he is gonna beat it. He is going through radiotherapy and tries to treat it by diet and makes his own extract from mistletoe (viscum album). He says he used to have it when he was young but conquered it, now it returned. It also runs in their family.

 

[Graeme1988]

That's horrible. I also know someone who has cancer, but he is still very positive and funny and says he is gonna beat it. He is going through radiotherapy and tries to treat it by diet and makes his own extract from mistletoe (viscum album). He says he used to have it when he was young but conquered it, now it returned. It also runs in their family.

My dad's in hospital just now, starts getting treatment on Thursday. He just phoned my mum yesterday and told her he has cancer. She wasn't actually going to tell me. I kinda glad she did, though. But I'm not sure how to cope with the news. Mixed feeling, to be honest. I don't where to start if I do call my dad at some point this week. I mean, what do I say? We've hardly said a word to each other in 8 years.

 

[superfluouslyme]

I just found out my dad has cancer. :: I'm f**king devastated, crying right now. My dad and I never really got along that well. And early this year I cut off contact with him. ::

I'm sorry to hear that. It's always tough, no matter the circumstances.

 

[MollyBeGood]

F***** up. PMS is really reeking havoc on my brain/body. being female is no easy gig i tell ya. one min I am happy/horny/normal.. the next in tears. at least I know it's hormones and can take some solace in that I have nothing to really do with it.

 

[Deus_Ex_Lemur]

My dad's in hospital just now, starts getting treatment on Thursday. He just phoned my mum yesterday and told her he has cancer. She wasn't actually going to tell me. I kinda glad she did, though. But I'm not sure how to cope with the news. Mixed feeling, to be honest. I don't where to start if I do call my dad at some point this week. I mean, what do I say? We've hardly said a word to each other in 8 years.

So sorry. I hope it will all work out. It's easy for us to sit here and say what to do. 8 years is a long time; but you had time. You don't have to rush into anything, but that was then, this is now. =) Anyways, wish you well with all this.

 

[Deus_Ex_Lemur]

F***** up. PMS is really reeking havoc on my brain/body. being female is no easy gig i tell ya. one min I am happy/horny/normal.. the next in tears. at least I know it's hormones and can take some solace in that I have nothing to really do with it.

I know what you mean, sister! .... okay I don't know, but, I can only imagine - I feel a rollercoaster of moods WITHOUT all that woman stuff, I'd be a wreck if I had to go through those times of the month. Hope you get out of it soon.

 

[MollyBeGood]

LOL ty for the laugh yep, it's a curse...called it that for a reason. Hope your doing well this weekend.

 

[pingu07]

i feel i was better 5 yrs ago, than i am now.

 

[Deus_Ex_Lemur]

i feel i was better 5 yrs ago, than i am now.

I feel this too, about 4 years ago but then I really was. But if you were "better" then, you can be even more better now or later. You've done it, so you can do so again. And you're wiser now even if it don't feel like you are

 

[Graeme1988]

So sorry. I hope it will all work out. It's easy for us to sit here and say what to do. 8 years is a long time; but you had time. You don't have to rush into anything, but that was then, this is now. =) Anyways, wish you well with all this.

Thanks for the advice. I'm going to ask my mum for my dad's mobile phone number, might phone or text him tomorrow. It'll be difficult and really awkward, but I'll have to get in contact with my dad at some point.

 

[superfluouslyme]

i feel i was better 5 yrs ago, than i am now.

I've been bouncing that idea back and forth in my head for a while now. Even just last year, I had a full time job that paid well, I was a manager, and I was saving up money to pay off my bills and move out of my dad's house. Now I have none of those things. But I feel like, while I may have taken several steps back in terms of living the life I want, I have made some pretty big strides in being happy with myself. Now if I can only get the two of those to cooperate together.

Thanks for the advice. I'm going to ask my mum for my dad's mobile phone number, might phone or text him tomorrow. It'll be difficult and really awkward, but I'll have to get in contact with my dad at some point.

I wouldn't even dare say that I can understand what you are going through, because I really, truly don't. But I hope that you think about it and decide to do what is right for you.

 

[Deus_Ex_Lemur]

In 2006, I thought things couldn't get worse. I still had a friend then. I recall talking with him about what we wanted to be doing five years down the line. it's very depressing to think about that now. The reality is that it's been eleven years of intense AvPD, each year worse then that before it. I'm seriously thinking of throwing in the towel. I've had enough. Another five years of this? No thanks.

What have you done? I've come to realize I have AvPD more than SA, and I can't imagine 5 more years like this myself - BUT - I also realize I've not done what I could. I blame AvPD/SA, my environment, situation, and all that factors significantly but at the end of the day it's also a choice. Allowing this stuff to steamroll you into giving in - or doing the hardest thing and doing something about it. I KNOW we've tried to do things, and still end up in same spot it seems. But I only speak for myself, I've not REALLY, REALLY gone for it. I still choose, even now, to be steamrolled. But I know I will choose not to be finally and for REAL. Esp now, graduated, the time's coming. Some days seem more hopeless than others, but I KNOW I don't want to be 30 and be like this.

So I don't even know what I'm saying now =D Just - it's never too late in my opinion. Only thinking so will MAKE it so. So you don't have to make 5 more years of this. Impossible as it may seem and arduous a journey now, it doesn't have to be inevitable the next 5 years will be just like all the rest. Don't believe it

 

[Deus_Ex_Lemur]

I've been bouncing that idea back and forth in my head for a while now. Even just last year, I had a full time job that paid well, I was a manager, and I was saving up money to pay off my bills and move out of my dad's house. Now I have none of those things. But I feel like, while I may have taken several steps back in terms of living the life I want, I have made some pretty big strides in being happy with myself. Now if I can only get the two of those to cooperate together.

This is a good way of looking at things. S.A is a strength-building process where we learn who we really are. Once we've done that, we can start feeling happier with who we are. I was the happiest I've ever been this time last year but perhaps that happiness was built on false pretences because I was so unknowingly unstable.

More than a few years ago I was very similar Super. Def took a thousand steps back =D And haven't gotten ahead yet. But it is the false pretenses Twiggy said too because despite all that we haven't laid down a firm foundation o build upon, so when things come "crashing down" around us, we don't come down with it. I was mostly full time job, higher up, great job, more social, fun in school, and once all lost at once I wasn't stable enough to recover - that's why many slip back and sometimes deeper because they weren't really "ready" or not ready but... bleh lost train of thought. ::

I'll just say Twiggle nailed it tho.

 

[alspacka]

I've just been staring at the same ~50 lines of code for over 4 hours, been searching all over the internet for solutions etc.. nothing to be found.

I'll go lie in my comfortable bed, put on a mind-numbing action movie and switch off for an hour or so . I think I'll watch total recall, gotta love schwarzenegger.

 

[BlackPuma]

Terrible.

It's never nice to hear your partner say that the conversation you have been having online for nearly 5 years ''are getting boring'' and ''we should think about whether we really want our future to be like this..''.

I'm getting so tired of his neediness. I've given all I have, and never complained about the annoying things he does.

 

[Beatrice]

Neutral. Which is a good thing.

 

[Deus_Ex_Lemur]

I've just been staring at the same ~50 lines of code for over 4 hours, been searching all over the internet for solutions etc.. nothing to be found.

I'll go lie in my comfortable bed, put on a mind-numbing action movie and switch off for an hour or so . I think I'll watch total recall, gotta love schwarzenegger.

‪You think this is the real Quaid?‬‏ - YouTube

I think you should too

Terrible.

It's never nice to hear your partner say that the conversation you have been having online for nearly 5 years ''are getting boring'' and ''we should think about whether we really want our future to be like this..''.

I'm getting so tired of his neediness. I've given all I have, and never complained about the annoying things he does.

If you've given it your all, and it's not been or being reciprocated, there seems to be ground run out of. These are tough things but you gotta think of yourself and your happiness too, it's not selfish either.

 

[vexatiousmind]

Hungry, but nothing sounds good.

WHOA is me::

 

[Graeme1988]

I wouldn't even dare say that I can understand what you are going through, because I really, truly don't. But I hope that you think about it and decide to do what is right for you.

I'm an emotional wreck right now. :: Haven't been able to take my mind off being told my dad has cancer. It's just brought back alot of awkward stuff from the past 8 years.

I realize I didn't make enough of an effort on my part to actually get to know him when I was a teenager. And, even though he was a huge part of my life until I turn 15, maybe I shouldn't have felt resentment towards him, as I did.

Well... I'm going to try and get some sleep. See how I'm feeling in the morning, and try and talk with my dad at some point this week, hopefully.

 

[EscapeArtist]

I'm feeling pretty pissed after running around trying to get money out of my bank account and being unable to by 1. lost card and 2. sunday. I have a guy coming over to sell me a juicer that I don't have the money for and he drove a bit (probably like 20-30 mins), sorry dude..I feel anxious to tell him that his drive was for not much