What I mean by this, is when you look in the mirror when you're by yourself, what do you see? Do you like what you see, wish you could change certain features?
The problem I'm facing is that when I'm at home by myself, I don't mind the way I look, when I see into the mirror. I think that it's not too bad, could be worse. But maybe that's because there's nobody else that I can compare myself to.
However, set foot outside and whenever I catch a glimpse of my reflection, I am forever disugsting and horrified by my looks. I just shudder and wish that I could look completely different.
Does anybody else feel this way?
if your appearance ever makes you not want to step outside, then it could be a sign of body dismorphic disorder, or you spend inordinate amounts of time obssessed with appearances.
Everytime I see a picture of myself, I always see a big forehead, saggy fat cheeks, beady eyes that are way too close together, blotchy skin, lines under my eyes, a crooked nose, and usually a hunched/awkward posture if it's a long shot. But I justify it as it's ok to be ugly, there's plenty of worse things to be. And I'm fortunate that I don't have to look at myself all day- that burden is on other people. And also, too, there's a lot of gimmicks that can make someone "better looking"- tattoos, piercings, dying hair, stylish haircut, going to the gym, wearing clothes that are stylish/figure flattering, whitening teeth etc. -so if i wanted to "look better" there's things I could do.
For me, I know that if I was born in someone else's body, I would feel the same way. Like I've heard people with brown eyes say they're plain, but I like brown eyes- they have a depth to them that blue/green eyes don't.
But yeah, sometimes I catch a glimpse of myself, and its like 'wow, i knew i looked bad, but i didn't think i looked
that bad!'
I'm always self-conscious, but sometimes it helps me to remember that god created us in his image, and that there really isn't a big difference in human beings- we're talking milimeters of difference in size of eyes/nose/lips- there's only so much variation you can have. And there's always different taste- what I find attractive, someone else wouldn't. And visa versa. But I don't have to be attracted to myself, that's for some weirdo out there.
