This means a lot to me. I'll take heed
It's time for me to change. It ain't easy.
I made a confession to myself that I over-analyze everything.
I think it's the opposite of most normal people
There's some aspect of paranoia for me, in the inner game of chess; the way I perceive the world. I got deeply into my career in the SQL database way to categorise and relate any kind of event, object and person in the real world in a single-dimension timeline. It's for controlling a company or business to plan ahead. Office people use their buzzword phrase 'going forward'... as if there was never any crossroads, underground, water or sky options
They, and recruiters, or TV presenters, or sport stars have all had a natural brain lobotomy before birth, or still want to, and don't ever want to look at the night sky
The plain acronym for scripting, SQL, around since ~the 1960s...
structured query language to communicate with a database
the equivalent of your native mother tongue language, to ask people questions and get a reply, or drive your car
I think there is sense with that. I've loved my work
Structure in life. Think ahead. Learn from mistakes. Trying to relay this to normal people is futile. A scientist & mathematician. This seems to be criminal from others' perspective of me.
Communication is life's premium hell
To follow.... toleration, compromise, comprehension, affinity, attempting to strike a balance... this is what I offer to others, however different we may be. I DON'T GET THAT IN REVERSE. NEVER. It's a one-way life. I like to give, not take. Others only take. Or inhibit.
Humans behave more simply than Safari animals. A vet knows everything