LycraPantiies92
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when she is as ****ed in the mind as me?:
i was at a gig the other week and then i realised hw outa touch i was from society..
i stood alone and they were all taking in their wee groups. tears actually came into ma eyes and i had to turn round coz i could have started crying.
i felt so annoyed at them all..for being able to have friends and talk to people without struggling. how were they all better than me/ i mean i know im a bitch that nbody would want to know but if thats true then why havnt i killed myself already. how can they all have friends and i can't, we are all people, none of them are any better than me. i just was a outcast and i didnt want to conform to that society..and they will outcast me for it. but let them. i wonder if i'm actualy happier this way (well since i'm breakin down depressed so much it would seem not) but if nobody will ever want me and i actualy want them back then why bother.
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no i won't bother anymore. i'm not meant to be here..i avnt got the right skills. surely sum people must ahve genuinely liked me b4 yet i can't even recall it bein true. they were all users. i know that..
i'd rather be alone, cz even people who say they are like me i can't get on with i must be pretty wrong. and i maybe am..but if i am just kill me now. stab me..coz i shukdnt be here. i amnt even a person. people dn't treat me like a person they ignore me and can't get on with me :: an i dont know if it'z all my fault or not.... i need to know but i think i will ust go and drink my vodka coz itz not worth bothering about is it. if peopole have never wanted me till now they arnt gona. i wasnt put on this earth 4 people to ignore and hate and bully..itz not fair that i am so alone at my age and spme people have it all! LUCKY LIL SHXTS. How do they gt it n i don't.. i am just scum like peoplle have said 2 me before. i'm scum, whether i have 'sa' or not . i am. scum.
i was at a gig the other week and then i realised hw outa touch i was from society..
i stood alone and they were all taking in their wee groups. tears actually came into ma eyes and i had to turn round coz i could have started crying.
i felt so annoyed at them all..for being able to have friends and talk to people without struggling. how were they all better than me/ i mean i know im a bitch that nbody would want to know but if thats true then why havnt i killed myself already. how can they all have friends and i can't, we are all people, none of them are any better than me. i just was a outcast and i didnt want to conform to that society..and they will outcast me for it. but let them. i wonder if i'm actualy happier this way (well since i'm breakin down depressed so much it would seem not) but if nobody will ever want me and i actualy want them back then why bother.
::
no i won't bother anymore. i'm not meant to be here..i avnt got the right skills. surely sum people must ahve genuinely liked me b4 yet i can't even recall it bein true. they were all users. i know that..
i'd rather be alone, cz even people who say they are like me i can't get on with i must be pretty wrong. and i maybe am..but if i am just kill me now. stab me..coz i shukdnt be here. i amnt even a person. people dn't treat me like a person they ignore me and can't get on with me :: an i dont know if it'z all my fault or not.... i need to know but i think i will ust go and drink my vodka coz itz not worth bothering about is it. if peopole have never wanted me till now they arnt gona. i wasnt put on this earth 4 people to ignore and hate and bully..itz not fair that i am so alone at my age and spme people have it all! LUCKY LIL SHXTS. How do they gt it n i don't.. i am just scum like peoplle have said 2 me before. i'm scum, whether i have 'sa' or not . i am. scum.