I am 21. I am in no way means ready to have a baby...I am still a student and living in a rented flat and I move every year as only yearly leases. I currently live with my sister, I have mo job and I am still very childish in my ways so I am not financally or emotionally stable right now to have a baby but I keep bringing it up to my boyfriend of two years. He says he is not ready and wants to see the world and get married and go to university. But I cannot stop thinking about having a baby. I know it will be a responsibility that im not ready for but every so often I go through a stage of my body aching and my brain on baby overload...I am not wanting a baby yet but somehow my body and mind is ready for it...every time im out and see a pram or a baby I picture me pregnant or with a baby of my own, I look so happy in my daydreams, I have constant dreams of holding a baby boy with my boyfriend and his family around me and hes my baby boy and I feel a motherly bond to this baby and when I wake up its like a part of me is missing...I feel sad that he wasnt real but he felt so real. What is wrong with me am I going crazy.....