rocky_oreo
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For years I had this massive problem eating in front of people. Especially in restaurants/cafes and even in my own home if there were people there that weren't eating although the latter don't affect me now if it's my own family but when it's others I can still feel a bit awkward.
When I went to places where you eat with my family I usually chose the tables in the corner or out of the way and I always faced the way where the less amount of people would see me. This is something I started to grow out of until I was a teenager and my Mum commented on something one day that made it all come back again. She told me that I eat funny. So as you can imagine after that, it all came back just as worse again. Then some years later I mentioned to my Mum about her comment when we were eating somewhere and she just replied with, that I do. Although my Mum is very supportive and always has been with my SA, sometimes people really don't realise when they say someting that can make you worse.
Another time (both my Mum and partner have done this) have told me I walk funny in public, so now whenever I walk in public and there are people about I am always conscious of how I walk. Sometimes I couldn't care less what people think about it (those rare ocassions when my anxiety is asleep because I am somewhere really exciting like the seaside so things don't bother me as much) but the rest of the time it plays on my mind.
There was another time as well where my therapist made me feel awkward. I had tried this skin care cream the night before, but because I have very sensitive skin, it caused me some blisters. I didn't want to face going out and seeing my therapist the next day but my Mum made me. As soon as my therapist saw me she saw my face and said I should have cancelled my session that day. So there was me having a brave moment, facing the world feeling like a freak only for my therapist to tell me I should have stayed at home
When I went to places where you eat with my family I usually chose the tables in the corner or out of the way and I always faced the way where the less amount of people would see me. This is something I started to grow out of until I was a teenager and my Mum commented on something one day that made it all come back again. She told me that I eat funny. So as you can imagine after that, it all came back just as worse again. Then some years later I mentioned to my Mum about her comment when we were eating somewhere and she just replied with, that I do. Although my Mum is very supportive and always has been with my SA, sometimes people really don't realise when they say someting that can make you worse.
Another time (both my Mum and partner have done this) have told me I walk funny in public, so now whenever I walk in public and there are people about I am always conscious of how I walk. Sometimes I couldn't care less what people think about it (those rare ocassions when my anxiety is asleep because I am somewhere really exciting like the seaside so things don't bother me as much) but the rest of the time it plays on my mind.
There was another time as well where my therapist made me feel awkward. I had tried this skin care cream the night before, but because I have very sensitive skin, it caused me some blisters. I didn't want to face going out and seeing my therapist the next day but my Mum made me. As soon as my therapist saw me she saw my face and said I should have cancelled my session that day. So there was me having a brave moment, facing the world feeling like a freak only for my therapist to tell me I should have stayed at home
