Hi - thank you so much for all the messages, it really helps to motivate me and makes me feel not alone, which is great. To be honest the soccer (football) is going well. I like getting out and running around and everyone's too puffed to care too much anyway. When your out there running around there isn't much socialising in reality. And the skill level varies greatly, so even though I'm not highly skilled I still feel I can contribute to the team.
They do this training exercise sometimes where people take turns at been in the middle, I fumbled the ball and someone laughed but I don't expect everyone to be great (and it was just once!). Mostly people seem nice. Actually they are having drinks tonight because a girl is leaving the team. I don't really want to go, I'm just not having the best day. I went into town and had an interview for a volunteer role and felt a tad strained doing it and I keep getting rejection emails (or silence, mostly silence) from my job applications. I haven't even got a single interview yet (oh I'm in WA in AUS). Still I'm having some successes and feel pretty good most of the time, its just hard at the second. As in I'm having a bit of cry listening to an old coldplay song (glee I'm glad this post is anonymous!!!) Well I've got to go clean and I'm thinking I might make some lemon sorbet to cheer myself up.
But back to the sport, soccer seems an okay fit but if I want to try something different I'm thinking definitely martial arts. Maybe not the freestyle nunchaku though, as this may end up resulting in face and nunchaku coming into contact.