I have the exact same issue. I finished Highschool 2 years ago and I'm the same age as you, about to be 20 in a few months.
I've been agoraphobic, not doing crap with my life and broke as a joke. I don't know how to run away from this problem, or to find something enjoyable.
How can I go out and meet people when I have no transportation or money? It's a bunch of cra...
I'm trying not to fret turning 20. I don't enjoy what most people do, I just want somewhere to fit in somewhere and do something.
I know.....
i know exactly how you feel. i have to force myself not to think back with regrets on all the time i've wasted just sitting here alone doing nothing, not making anything of myself. i think back on the bridges ive burned and opportunities ive missed out on.
im 19 as well and have been thinking "ive wasted my life" since i was 14 or so.
not really sure how to give advice (if you wanted any), but i can relate completely.
my parents have pretty much forced me into every job ive had, and forced me into college. though i was working and going to school, i felt even more lost. i wasnt doing what i wanted to do. i feel like the past few years have been a waste and that i could have done so much better.
but really, we're still young. all i can say is try to make the most of your life while you still got your life ahead of you. live every day to its fullest, as hard as that may be.
hi, when i finished high school i was 18, and i also didn't do a thing for 2 years, i basically spent 2 years doing nothing, maybe working 1 month in 2 years lol. My problem is/was to find something to study i like, because i hated school and nothing interested me. After 2 years i started university, not because i wanted, but because i had to, i have made the wrong decision again(as usual) i have done so much crap in my las 2/3 years(also moneywise) that i feel very uncomfortable about my situation.
I know the feeling. I did the college thing because you're supposed to do the college thing, lasted two years and have spent the last four doing not much of anything. (I'm 23, 24 in July.)
As you described, I don't mind being alone, but it sure was nice when that was more of a conscious choice than just the status quo. I can look back and remember a lot of times that, had I been mindful enough to care at the time, were pretty fantastic opportunities.
There's no single crushing tragic event in my past, or any series of them, just a pattern of apathy and timidity that only really becomes apparent in hindsight. That's a helluva lot better situation some people are in, but it still leaves me feeling a bit powerless sometimes.
I'd say more but you seem to already have the right mindset. Change is rarely as hard as we make it out to be, and you know that possibility is out there.
I'm in that extremley hard choice now to define the coming year or years. I'm scared of doing the wrong thing.
I'm 22, I can't afford college, got turned down for financial aid even though I am likely the poorest person here. I can't find a job, if could I couldn't do it as my first job in the Army reserve really messed my knees up.. My father told me to stop wasting my life. There isn't much I can do with my anxiety and knee problems. Been thinking more of suicide in the past few weeks as I ultimately know life is only going to get worse with no viable options to go with.. I have a car because I used my military money to get one and I used most of it to get a decent one I could enjoy.. I don't get to enjoy much at all in life, so I got a nice one..
I don’t know why you don’t qualify for disability severe mental illness alone sometimes qualifies. You should look into this.
Hurt on the Job
The Army refused to do a LOD when I was injured, I mean flat out refused to do one.. Only documents I have are from sickcall, the doctor and the hospital/ test results from an xray and MRI on my knees.. LOD is the military's burecratic way of screwing the injured over. I don't think the AFL-CIO can do anything here, let alone on military matters.. They won't fix my knees, pay me for the damage or even discharge me and this happened End of August early September 2011.. Almost 1 freaking year ago and they just keep me coming to drill and expect me to train.. Then get pissy when I refuse.. I have to carry around all my documents at drill to keep those morons at bay!
Yeah, it sounds like a tough situation if you haven’t already I’d be talking to an attorney.
Even talking to an attorney I'd have to pay.. I have $-71 in the bank, I wouldn't be seen.. I don't mean to hijack the OP's thread, so I'll stop at this.. My apologies OP!