Sorry if I'm bumping this thread too much.
Yes, agreed, there's still plenty of time. The purpose of this thread was more of a ventilation of my thoughts and see if there were others like me out there, rather then asking for any ABC-kind of advice.
There's lot of things I can do for myself, but as I have experienced and know the very moment I'm writing this; there are limits. When I'm jumping onboard the education train, then there's something going on. I'm focusing much on the present, and the past. How I've been spending time, and how lonely I feel.
As I'm closing up on a special age, I realize that I'm leaving something behind me that was supposed to be more rich of memories, or better spent. It's like I've been sick from loneliness for a long time, sometimes worse - sometimes better, but not until know do I realize what the "sickness" has cost me, and how sick I really am. I hope I'm not offending anyone witht that example, I just want to make my point clear.
Within a few months, I may very well have new friends. Or at least other things to be concerned about. But I don't know that yet. Right now I can only stand by the sideline and see how everything is happening without me.
Maybe others here read my one "wasted" year, and think I'm the living-at-home-slob-who-doesn't-do-anything-useful and want me to skip down to the unemployment office or jump back in the school bench.
Sure, I guess I fit in in some aspects of that slob description, but It's not really about that. I'm concerned about aging, and that I'm leaving behind so many things undone. Not living my current age to it's full extent before duties starts to adjust my life, because this is supposed to be that age when you're care-free and having "fun". I wont have anything real to look back on when I'm much older then my current age. No story to share.
I don't know if I'm making myself clear. I'm feeling very frustrated and hopeless.